Agent Ei’s Planetary Diary

by Andrew Smith

The Venus Diaries on the 27th March as Venus gestates

Conceived in lOve,

Within you the faint embryonic fluttering of hope and joy silently grows.

Unbound and free from the constraints of the past,

Anxiety and fear have no ground to root in this place of infinite possibility.

Quivering with anticipation and excitement

A new chapter dawns

A blank canvas beckons

Crying out to be filled with the unconditional creations of your heart

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image Credit –Freydoon Rassouli

The Venus Diaries on the 26th March as Venus is Conceived
Somewhere, floating formlessly within a swirling, spiralling, holographic sea of endless and boundless possibility, reaching across immeasurable space and countless time lines, the singular note momentarily quivers producing a faint, almost inaudible murmur. Imbued with the quality of its essence, this nascent countermelody is the same, but different. Hinting of harmony, yet offering another perspective, new pathways are opened up by this conjunct motion. Promising support, yet offering a new dimension to the melody, there are endless directions in which it can move.
As Venus starts to move across the Sun, out from their recent intimate embrace, a new ideal, a new way of loving, a possibility of a differing quality of peace has been seeded within you. Formless and unbound by anxiety and fear, a dream has just formed as the waves of darkness begin to brighten the shores of dawn.
Will you let this particle of light and jOy remain in harmony with your dream or will it offer you a disjunct alternative? Only you can decide on this day when your Heart Consciousness is being re-seeded with an ideal that will guide and inform your heart’s reality over the forth coming 18/19 months. Plant well my friends.
Andrew Smith © 2017
Image Credit – The Soul’s Journey by Freydoon Rassouli

The Venus Diaries on the 25th March as Venus Transition completes and she is re-conceived, lingering in nothing and everythingness, awaiting to reincarnate


Eyes tightly shut, she is unable to escape the light as it penetrates her to the core of her Being. Wave after wave of blinding white heat engulfs her, purifying her consciousness, her shadow embraced and dissolved. Alchemy abounds in this sacred space as negativity can no long play on a perpetual loop, yielding to the sheer heat of love as her truth is reborn.

She finally feels peace washing over her.

Feeling the Presence call inside her head, seducing her with a promise of rest and rejuvenation, she turns towards the soothing whisper.

‘Fear not, my sweetness. Lay down your heart-worries. Leave behind you your heart-cares and frustrations. Give up your position and your dreams of your special status. Give up the illusion of being deserving and entitled. That is the old way and not the way forward. Know that you are lOve. You do not have to seek it. It IS you. Shake the world with your confidence and gentleness, my dear’.

The faint smell of incense wafts across the intense light. Simultaneously a life restoring warmth spreads through her body as she hears those words penetrate the core of her being, rising upwards towards her head. Dizzy but invigorated, courageously yet tentatively, she takes a step forward as she reaches out to accept a gift offered to mark her re-birth.
Opening her eyes, she looks down and smiles. Contained within the crystalline casket is just what she needs to support her on her journey.

What has she been gifted?

What has your Heart been gifted?

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image Credit – Andrew Smith

The Venus Diaries on the 24th March the day before Renovatio
1 day…
Venus’ 19 month cycle reflects the birth, growth, maturity and waning of your heart based values and over the past two months, we, as a collective, and you as an individual have been encouraged to let go all egoic based attachments to that which you desire. That means who you lOve, what you lOve, what you long for, and who you long for. Yet, it is ironic that the more you focus on that which you desire, you more awareness you are placing on what you don’t have! In creating an awareness of what you don’t have you are generating a reality based on this lack, which in turn further reinforces what you don’t have! Therefore letting go attachments to what you want/ desire/ and long for is important if you are to generate a healthy manifestation of your heart based values.
Healing your heart and its desires is one of the most profound gifts afforded to you during the death and re-birth of Venus, and as Venus passes in front of the Sun on the 25th March, she is being infused with the Solar Light of elemental consciousness, and that baptism light will purify and cleanse your experience of Venus, offering you a chance to renew and replenish your relationship to Venus and therefore your heart based values.
Since Venus is invisible, thinking about what you value or what you desire. That will work during a Mercury Retrograde cycle, especially when Mercury is in an air sign. But will not resonate during a Venus retrograde cycle, especially when she is in a Fire sign. Therefore your healing has to be from the heart and has to be feeling based. But how do you KNOW what to let go of? Listen to your heart!!!
Okay, there are techniques within astrology to do that – you locate where Venus is in your chart by transit and what house or aspects it makes to your natal chart. That will give you a key to where your consciousness happens to be relative to this generic Venus cycle. Alternatively you can cast your eye over the words contained within the Venusian Bubble map, reflecting on the emotions and images that are triggered by those words, focusing specifically on how those words have been for you over the past two years of your life.
Venus concepts
If you find that a particular word, or concept, feels currently uncomfortable, pause and take a note of that word. I would like you to meditate and hold a space around the themes in your life that arise associated with that word. Can I ask you to reflect how that concept is manifesting in your life and specifically when you interact intimately with those in your life? Do you really value that side of yourself? Do you take the time to nourish that part of you? If not, why?
The ability to set a constructive intention concerning your Self-love, Self-valuation and Self-appreciation is what the potential of the alignment of Venus with the Sun concerns on the 25th March. Therefore I would ask you to hold a space for the aspect of this Venusian archetype within you that feels lacking in joy, balance or integration. Visualise that word, or an image that that word invokes for you; place it inside an imagined pentagram, mirroring the quinary symbol that Venus actual will make through space/time on the 25th March; and let the synergy of this Renovatio replenish the light around this un-integrated part of yourself.
The Quinary Venusian Pentagram
As your rejuvenated Solar Feminine makes her ascent back into the world between the 25th and 31st March, you can start to see the fledgling seeds of the intentions set germinate and sprout in the world around you as create reality with your replenished light-essence. Arising as the heliacal morning star, full of youthful zest and a crusading zeal, you can start to experiment with new ways of valuing yourself. The months of April, May and early June (until the 3rd, when Venus makes her Greatest Elongation from the Sun), you have full permission to make mistakes, stumble, fall and get up again, as you find your way with these new pathways.
1 day…
Andrew Smith, © 2017
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The Venus Diaries on the 23rd March as Dark Venus prepares to end her Transition

2 days…

Encased within matter it feels as if you are separate from everything and everyone. Your attempts to love and to create are merely efforts at transfiguring that illusory separation so you can build bridges outward to enable other people to reach you, and you them.

But anytime a part of you dies, any time you let go something that your heart is attached to, that illusion is shattered as physical separation is broken. As that part of your soul is released from its particular desires, it moves into a more free and fluent universe of spiritual belonging; it re-connects with unbounded possibility; it becomes unified and whole.

As the reflected light of the pale Moon wanes and elderly, weary Venus rests her wizened head on Sol’s chest over the next two days, her death mirrors the release rituals of your heart felt attachments that you have been doing. Her death creates a space for greater generosity, openness and breath to come into your life.

But know that her death is not final. Her death is merely a transmutation of her soul, as her re-birth looms. So grieve not for what you are letting go of. Rejoice in what gifts you have been offered; what you have experienced; what you have learnt; and what is to come. So come rest your weary head and know your lOve, your creativity, your heart has not been in vain.

2 days…

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Venus Diaries on the 21st March as Dark Venus is in Transition approaching the Sun in octile to the Chiron/ Pluto midpoint

3 days to let go

Breath spasmodic and laboured, chest heaving, gasping for air, her mind lost amidst a swirling mass of neurotic thoughts and feelings, the stifling heat wafting over her in waves, threatening to overwhelm her, she fights to hold onto her memories as the boundaries of her awareness start to blur and merge with the One Light.

3 days to surrender

Slipping in and out of consciousness, reality and fantasy merge making it hard to distinguish between her life lived and unlived. Her heart consumed by paradox as feelings of joy and sorrow, hope and despair, satisfaction and regret coarse through her veins.

3 days to THE time

Too tired to fight any longer, her heart too weary to hold onto forlorn feelings, slowly she turns her head in the direction of the susurrated whisper. Images of love immediately fill her heart – that first look into her baby’s eyes; the ionised smell of the sea as a spring sun rises majestically on a crystal clear morning; the gentle knowingness in her parents eyes as they celebrated their 50th anniversary; the warmth of her lovers arms as he reached out for her as they watched the twinkling of Sirius in the cold Winter night skies.

Take my hand, fly with me.

Through the fiery haze, she senses a shimmering hand extended towards her. Finally she realises that she was never alone. Lifting her hand, she reaches out…

3 days…

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Venus Diaries on the 21st March as Dark Venus is in Transition approaching the Sun in octile to the Chiron/ Pluto midpoint

4 days…

An urn sits hungrily by the threshold of the Vault of Light. To enter you have to leave behind something precious, something to which your ego is attached.

Know that there is a price to pay within the Vault – you will no longer be able to hide out from your unique natural perfection, pretending you are unworthy.

You will no longer be able to assert your unlovability as you discover that what you are is lOve itself. You will be no longer able to conclude that a mistake has been made or that you were born under a bad star. In this Light of Lights you will see that even your neurotic spinning is weaved of particles of luminosity, brilliance, and intelligence. In this sacred space you see so clearly that there is no ‘you’ here and ‘lOve’ over there; that lOve is something that you need to search for; that lOve will find you; that you will find lOve within the arms of another. That is an old ideal which is being burned up in the March Fire of Transmutation. LOve is here now and is burning up in its longing to move through you to set this world on fire.

There is no need to carry further any blocks that have prevented you living lOve, being lOve, and experiencing lOve. There is no need to not believe that you can live what you lOve and make a living from what you lOve. There is no need to feel alone, when you have never been alOne. All you need to do is to leave something that you have been attached to, a script or pattern that you have invested your heart in, an expectation that has arisen from your ego, behind. All you need to do is decide what that will be. What you offer up to be burned in the Fire of Transmutation. What is it that you are prepared to leave behind in that urn?

4 days…

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image Credit – Ashish Kumar

The Venus Diaries on the 20th March – Dark Venus, as Venus disappears from sight and squares the Saturn/Pluto midpoint

5 Days

The name Dark Venus comes from the fact that Venus slips from our sight and therefore is deemed invisible. In a world that favours the bright and dazzling colours, the dark has developed many negative and fearful associations and it conjures up images of concealment, loss, isolation, madness, failure, grief and the demonic shadow. The alchemical power of such a phase may therefore be lost since the purpose of the dark phase of any cycle is that of transition between the death of the old and the birth of the new. The dark time is merely a time of retreat, of healing, of breathing, of stillness, of true listening, of surrender, of letting go, of dreaming and of preparation.

The irony of the title “Dark Venus” is that Venus actually is sufficed with light, as she enters the Vault of Light! Her invisibility is lit with the translucent quality of transformation, as she prepares to be cleansed through a transmutation process, after merging with the Full Light of the Sun on the 25th March. This collective heart-pause encourages an active re-evaluation, re-appraisal and re-envisioning of the manner in which you openly and honest express lOve.

Spending active time over the coming five days contemplating the way in which you have lOved; the psychology of how you have earned a living; the scripts that you have experienced within your relationships and social life; and the way in which you have created from your heart over the past 8 years will enable to you understand the recurring patterns in your life concerning the health of your heart-consciousness. Without censoring your feelings, this magical time is one to allow all emotions to rise; to re-experience and acknowledge each heart ache and heart joy and to thank them for the hard lessons and the ecstasy they have provided you, and to start to dream about what you want to invite into your life.

5 days…

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image Credit – Banana Tree

The Venus Diaries on the 19th March as Arian Venus rapidly falls from her Throne into the embrace of the Light

6 days…

It has taken eighteen months of deep process to reach this point – eighteen months of exploring, wondering, questioning, testing, sharing, reflecting, contemplating, heart aching, tears, angry pride, acceptance, integration, exploring, wondering, questioning, testing, sharing, reflecting, insight, calmness and subsequently maturity of your Heart Consciousness. And now, in such a short space of time you have been exploring, wondering, questioning, testing, sharing, reflecting, contemplating, heart aching, tears, angry pride, acceptance, integration, exploring, wondering, questioning, testing, sharing, and reflecting within a few short weeks, as you can feel an urgency to put to rest those heart centred patterns which have puppeteered your recent relationships. It is as if time has literally accelerated within your heart’s reality, even if it has slowed at other levels of your soul.

This quickening is due to your heart’s pending death. Yes, death.

Yet every death is a precursor to a rebirth, just as winter always cedes to spring and the drab grey clouds yield to those fluffy whites! Soon you will embark upon another adventure. Soon another cycle of love/ lOve will begin. 6 days in fact. Now is the time to shed and release what needs to be let go. Now is the time to prepare your heart to centre itself on a mantra that will define your heart’s re-birth.

What mantra will that be?

Furthermore, what is it that you need to let die?

What is it that you need to transmutate?

Those are the questions to reflect on as your prepare to step into the baptism flame.

6 days…

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Venus Diaries on the 18th March as Venus enters Her Completion, joining with Mercury in Aries.
7 days…
As Her Time draws ever nearer, her Heart deep in reflection she continues to prepare herself to come into Balance with the One Light. It has been a lonely time as she has descended from her Throne making little connection with the world around her. She has been busy, yes; she has been sociable, yes; and countless souls have sought her counsel, yes; but she walks alone as she ends her journey, just as she did, eighteen months ago when this path first started.
Has she truly opened her Heart and let Spirit flow through her? Has she truly cared for herself, thereby enabling her to truly care for those in her world? Has she truly spoken lOve, even during times of unkindness, sadness, anger and frustration? Those questions are forefront of her Mind as the One Light looms ever closer with every step she takes.
What has she learnt? What has she truly embodied? Lost in thought, she knows that it is important to come up with a mantra that will be her totem for the coming year. From somewhere deep within her a Voice whispers – it is very simple; what you feel, colours your thought; what you think, colours your perception; what you perceive, colours your reality; what your reality is, defines your world…
And it dawns on her – So shall it be felt shall be expressed
Her heart uplifted, her weariness lifting, she continues to descend towards the One Light, uttering her Mantra, aligning her heart with her Mind, weaving her perception and reality with feelings of lOve. .
7 days…
Andrew Smith ©2017
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The Venus Diaries on the 17th March as Venus prepares to leave her Completion and enter Transition

It has been an intense journey, since this most recent incarnation of her heart in August 2015, but now the end draws near as her heart prepares to be reborn on the 25th March. The intensity of this past week’s emotional heart strings has been a necessary journey as she prepares to cross the bridge and leave this stage of her life behind her. Reflection, old heart-patterns and scripts, loneliness, regret and sadness have dominated her heart’s consciousness as she attempts to make sense of the ‘why’.

Her mood today, however, is turning and her heart feels lighter and somewhat uplifted, as hope, in the form of a gentle ray of light, can be seen as she falls towards this comforting beam. As the light builds, images of times past, of love shared, of jOy flash through her mind, coupled with a sense of satisfaction and comfort knowing that many old patterns have been laid rest and fundamentally altered, as her Heart remembers what is, and has been, important – union; connection; people; and lOve. Always lOve.

As death approaches, her heart is drawn to feel the gifts that each person she’s connected with has brought to her life. Each experience and each relationship has fundamentally served her and made her who she is.

Ahead the Bridge awaits and Transition dawns. As this heart cycle ends, please take the time to find those gifts that those in your life have brought, as you are faced with the decision to continue to carry the past with you, letting those heart-based scripts companion with you on a new path, or to fully embrace what has been offered to you and raising the vibration of how your heart-consciousness resonates.

Andrew Smith 2017

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The Venus Diaries on the 10th/ 11th March as Venus Completes whilst Mercury conjoins Chiron and squares Saturn
It is a strange light that shines on that space between spaces, where time is suspended and space is meaningless. The pressure that has been building within is released, leaving you tired yet curiously refreshed. More emptied and ready to be filled with … Well that good old Shadow will want to enslave you with those fine leaden bonds to that place you have come from, chaining you to the perpetual wheel of life, ever repeating, again and again and again and … But something feels different.
The light feels … protected… even as your Shadow walks.
Can you see it?
So face it. Look straight into its presence and see through the willowy illusions that it casts. Can you hear how perversely alluring its voice has been and how coarse life has been within its shadowy cloak?
Things are different now, as you have within you the power to confidently stand up to this old and frail demon. You can heal and release what was once an iron clad grip, should you choose to see through the illusion, opening your life to house a new voice and a more expanded version of you. That has been the gift on offer over the coming days.
Andrew Smith © 2017
The Venus Diaries on the 8th March as Retrograde Arian Venus reflects during the Sun’s sextile to Pluto
Her step quickening on her path back home, insights flash before her from what her heart-consciousness has learnt during this latest incarnation. How she battled with her worth and esteem, judging herself, restricting her jOy and focusing on what she perceived that others want from her. How futile that was when all she needed was to listen to her heart. Within her resides a core that remains unaltered by the opinions and beliefs of other people. It is a core that she tapped into so that she could find her true power. As she sought to live her truth, she had to follow her intuition and instincts, even though she shook like a leaf in a violent wind. Frightened, at times, as her heart’s beat led her away from a path that other’s wanted her to walk, it felt un-nerving but now, as her days wane, she ‘sees’ that her anxiety was merely an illusion. All that happened was that her unhappiness continued when she was led by her mind. All that happened was that her happiness continued when she was led by her heart.
A quiet air of confidence now surrounds her now as she is guided by her spiritual heart. Her Truth revealed, her identity taken back, so too her dreams as she feels both courage and strength surge through her veins.
In sync with the Heavenly Queen’s path, you too know what the right thing to do is. The question is whether you will step up and seize the moment to let your heart shine true?
Andrew Smith © 2017
The Venus Diaries on the 7th March as solo Venus retraces her steps in Aries
As the twilight spreads silently over the land, the sky darkening and the gentle white lights appear in heaven’s carpet, she senses His presence. Inside she feels a growing sense of the inevitable as the slope down increases, the path straightens and time quickens.
‘It is time’, she hears a quiet voice whisper inside her head. ‘Let go’.
Images of love forgotten, love broken, love found, love experienced flash across her mind’s eye filling her heart with both joy and remorse.
His voice. His presence. She feels safe. The distress drains from her body and soul. She feels gently held by Him. She has not felt that since the 15th August, 18 months ago, when she awoke from a similar semi-comatosed slumber, rejuvenated and re-invigorated. Excited with the possibility of rekindling her heart again, she sees that her way forward has but one route! To surrender and embrace the burgeoning twilight!
Mirroring Venus’ decent from the 4th March into her embrace with Sol on the 25th March, you too have the opportunity to you are prompted to travel alone within your Dark so that you can face yourself and humbly strip yourself of your feminine ego; to seek atonement and ultimately raising the consciousness of your femininity to a level that better enables you to fully embrace your feminine Light. The question is – What has your heart-consciousness learnt during this past nineteen months?
What have you truly learnt? Will you forgive, let go, let be, let your heart become vulnerable and open it fully? Will you truly integrate all that you have experienced, so that you can get off this ever perpetual Wheel? Will you continue to lOve openly, honestly, truly and ardently?
17 days to release what needs releasing; 17 days to integrate what needs integration; 17 days to renovatio …
Andrew Smith © 2017

The Venus Diaries on the 6th March as isolated Venus dims as she descends inwards

It is funny how time feels towards the end. It took such a long time to get to this place – at times it was a struggle; other times it flowed; at times there was pain; other times jOy; and now, time has speed up. However quick time now feels, every precious moment lingers more acutely; however numb it gets, senses are both sharpened and heightened, though acutely selective; however amnesic the brain becomes, past memories flash in and out as regret diminishes within the panorama and jOy within those simple moments accentuates.

What a time to live through as understanding dawns within this eagle eyed view of the patterns and scripts that puppeteered the heart’s consciousness as the journey down and in accelerates over the coming 17 days. Forgiveness of Heart is all that is needed, after all it has all been about lOve, even those terrible times. It has all been about lOve, even when there was pain. It has always been about lOve, even when darkness was a solo friend. It is always about lOve, as egoic pride is released. It is always about lOve, especially in winter.

18 days to renovatio …

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Venus Diaries on the 5th March as wizened and alone Venus completes

No longer perspiring with concentration, muscles relaxed on the downward slope, her mind is able to focus on the path and also on the past. Memories flash before her, as images of love lOved, love broken, love deepened, love that got away, love that grew apart, love that was only love, lOve that was lOve but she didn’t realise it, love that was never lOve, love that was merely platonic, love that was groaned and screamed, lOve that was open, lOve that was hinted at, lOve misunderstood, lOve that will always be lOve despite time standing in the way, and age, and maturity, and circumstance, love that hurt, lOve that healed… so many experiences, so much pain as tears of jOy, tears of regret, tears of friendship, tears of hurt, tears of beauty, tears of pain, tears of awe and tears of majesty roll down her face that distracted her heart from the truth – that the only lOve there is was the lOve she made.

Downwards she descends. Let the healing in. Let the healing in.

18 …

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Venus Diaries on the 4th March as Venus enters completion, pauses and descends.

And there she stands, a threshold to cross, a path sloping downwards, a path that will, very shortly, lead back home. No longer needing to hold a space for all those whom she lOves; no longer interested in the Darkness striding through the world; no longer possessing the energy to worry about the heart of another, her focus, her breath, her heart turns inwards as silence envelopes her. Sacred is the prayer that asks for nothing, as she gives thanks to all that she is and all that she has. Stillness beckons as she seeks her spiritual essence, her sOul heart.

41 days to wander inwards, 16 days until Darkness consumes her, 19 days until her last breath and the bridge she will cross, 20 days until she embodies the Light and understands that there was never any darkness. Ever. There is only lOve. There was only lOve. There will only be lOve.

But now is her time to shed. Now is her time to walk with her enemies. Now is her time to cross the threshold and journey into the underworld. Now is the time for her death.

“Daughter, Sister, Mother, Grandmother, friend, lover, wife, noblewoman, gOddess, temple priestess, enter. It is time…”

It is time…

19 days…

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Gold Diary on the 1st March as the Sun and Neptune unite
Crazy chaotic, crazy tired, crazy emotional, crazy weird, crazy boundary-less, crazy dreams, crazy cravings, crazy unicorns and fluffy pink bunnies, crazy surreal … crazy releasing, crazy dissolving, crazy dissipating, crazy letting go, crazy releasing, crazy visions, crazy insights, crazy zany, crazy crazy…
Did I mention the word crazy? Been a bit crazy of late? Been feeling a little surreal and existentially exhausted? Been a tad emotional? Been a tad hysterical? Want to blame the stars? Pity you can’t…
What is has been about is facing the lie and illusion, the co-dependency and addict, the saviour and redeemer, the victim and the martyr, so that you can see the illusion of it all and realise that they are all you and none of it is you.
And it has been crazy.
But something has shifted today. Something has felt different. As you stand on the fledgling threshold of this new beginning you can see just how necessary it has been to have died. All semblances of your masculine ego gone, leaving you with nothing, yet everything. How difficult that has been, since everything in your world is set up to cling purposefully to order and routine, to slavery and fear, to being dummed down and pretending that you are someone. How difficult it has been to have no identity, yet to have started to experientially grasp the meaning of William Blake’s poem ‘to see a world in a grain of sand and heaven in a wild flower, hold infinity in the palm of your hand and eternity in an hour…’
Today is a day for a fresh vision. Today is a day to be crazy but clear. Today is a chance to see the dream and the illusion; and today is a new dawn. Crazy it is, but purpose exists within the craziness. All will be revealed in six months.
Andrew Smith © 2017
Image from Burning Man 2015

The Venus Diaries on the 27th February as isolated and aging Venus starts to descend, slow and lose luminosity in Aries

The ethereal temperature has been pretty high of late and it is far too easy to descend into a description of conflict and complaints, existential exhaustion and despondency; fear and emotional drama. It’s too easy to blame what’s going on on something other than ourselves and to continue to perpetuate the myth of the external. But that is not necessary the purpose of the grieving Heavenly Queen, whose lustre is diming, whose speed is slowing, yet whose message remains strong, mature and wise. As she reigns high in heaven, she reminds us that by developing a relationship to your spiritual will, a synthesis of the will of your humanity and your personal or self-will, you can be endowed with a new power; a power to set clear intention, determination and purpose to realise your Divine plan and to experience a greater sense of effective focus and service to you and those in your life. Rather that this being an end of days, this is effectively, a time wherein you can awaken to the will of your soul and to recognise your place in the wider scheme of life, expanding your awareness to identify with a larger purpose that extends beyond societies loins, pockets and podium.

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Silver Diary on the 26th February on the dawn of the New Moon in Pisces

So as the Moon disappears from our night sky, a space opens up to view our celestial origins more clearly. As you gaze into the apparently fathomless beauty of the night sky, you are actually looking deep with your own numinosity, since your inner world is reflected in the world that you ‘see’. With no light to distract you from your interiority, you are afforded a space to travel into your Deep. The vibration created by the synergy of the Cosmic In and Out breath’s (Luna and Sol) coming together, creates a portal within your interiority to forge a new relationship to the re-kindled archetype of the living water, or Pisces. Pisces really refers to the fluid exchange of emotionally charged light between all living and non-living things. Wherever this sign falls within your birth chart shows you where you can actively and consciously lose all sense of Self, let go all notions of ego and merge with someone or something, as you move beyond the illusion of the ego mind and return to the One-ness of Source Consciousness.

The night skies have been dark for a little over two days prior to today’s new moon and will continue to remain dark for two more days, before you see the Moon in the early morning skies, and it is a profound time to take this time to meditate, contemplate and reflect on the question concerning the emotional context of your beliefs. As allays, respect comes to the front line along with tolerance, friendship and peace and as we know everything starts from us, as Ghandi said: “Be the Change you wish to see in the world”.

Extracted from Emotional Storm, the New Moon in Mutable Water by Andrew Smith, 2017

Art by Josephine Wall

The Venus Diaries on the 25th February as virtually un-aspected Venus nears her Retrogradation (4th March)


Awakening can be a kicker, especially if those you lOve are moving at a different pace to you. You may know that you are loved, but still feel unlOved, and that is tough, especially since the predominate paradigm is to give yours complete to love. But you are expected to give yourself to love, not lOve. And lOve has been what this past three quarters of a year has been about.

And now, alone you walk along this path, slowing daily, starting to ponder the nature of your heart-reality. Ahead you can see is your desert. 40 days beckons. And you can sense a re-birth nears. But before that, death awaits. You can sense it. You will have to let go something that you love, so that you can truly lOve. Heart-honesty is all you have. It is the only currency that matters. It is the only thing that the Dark is frightened of and this ginger time calls you to lOve in the face of confrontation; in the face of misinterpretation; and in the face of reclaiming that which you have not clearly seen before.


Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Ivan Guaderrama

The Indigo Diary on the 25th February as Mars conjoins Uranus as Jupiter opposes Uranus

… there are times when the world feels as if it opposes you! And in the moment that may not feel comfortable. It may also feel unkind and devoid of lOve. But is it? Until we all reach a point wherein we have fully embraced our Shadow, we need the world to act as a mirror so that we can face ourselves through the lens of someone who is ‘not’ us!

And so it has been with the space that we, as a collective, have been moving through of late, as you have either been confronted by, or received confirmation of, how you believe, what growth means to you and whether you are truly free to expand and grow in whatever way you choose. Utterly enveloped within an emotional cocoon, even dreaming has not been giving respite as confrontation abounds. However, confrontation offers illumination if you can leave your ego behind you and truly listen to what is being said. Granted, you do not have to agree. But in the midst of confrontation, the highly charged emotional responses you feel rise within you are good indications of a thought form that is not truly yours, that needs to be explored and released.

So on the eve of the solar eclipse, as the primary Yang state of our consciousness is not able to shine forth, you have the chance to see confrontation in a new light, a humble light, a light devoid of ego, and you have the chance to see what you truly need to see, embrace, heal, integrate and lOve. Look at the drama in your life; look at your reactions, and ask, do you need it? What are you truly gaining from it? Is not time to let it go, offering it up with gratitude for the illumination that you have been afforded? Is it not time to show the arrogance of ego the softening light of lOve? Remember as allays, respect comes to the front line along with tolerance, friendship and peace and as we know everything starts from us, as Ghandi said: “Be the Change you wish to see in the world”.

The text is adapted from Emotional Storm – the New Moon in Mutable Water by Andrew Smith

The Venus Diaries on the 24th February as Arian Venus prepares to move into her Completion (4th March)

How sad she feels observing how filled with anger, getting even and getting one up many hearts have become. Reflecting back on her own life, she truly knows that using anger when confronted with anger simply does not work. It never has. It never will. All it does is to further reinforce the wall that someone wants to build, isolating, separating and dividing. She realises that remaining firm and resolute, being honest and offering lOve where there is pain, is the only path she can now walk, as she walks surrounded by confrontation. Tension abounds and an emotional storm rages. But from the depth of her experience, having started this particular path back on the 15th August 2015 (and renewed on the 6th June 2016), she now understands that confrontation is merely illumination in disguise – an illumination of what she has not integrated in herself and needs to, lest she remains bound to the Wheel. She knows that by healing herself; healing her heart; and trusting lOve, in time, slowly, the Wheel turns and a new dawn will come. Patience and lOve. Unwavering lOve. It is the only way.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Eva Ruiz

The Purple Diary on the 23rd February as Jupiter opposes Uranus (extract from Emotional Storm – the New Moon in Mutable Water)
It has been an emotionally intense time on planet Earth of late, or I should reframe that statement – you have undoubtedly come aware how emotionally intense it has been at all levels on the Earth of late, as Darkness fights hard to survive against the increasing numbers of those that are remembering they are Light. Yet Darkness no longer has a stranglehold on the Earth, despite what it appears. Quietly, Light beckons and spreads. Goodness prevails, once you ignore the double talk echoing from your newsfeeds. Yes, justice is being hammered; yes, truth is being questioned; yes, parts of the world appear in regression; yes, egoic reactive anger has been heightened; and yes, Gaia is reappearing in various guises all over the world.
Remember that we are witnessing an age old dualistic, yet one sided, fight as Darkness goads and taunts Light, hoping to defeat Light by anchoring it to Darkness’ level. That ‘fight’ has escalated of late, as the world moves through a fascist echo of the late 1920’s and mid 1930’s, as our global community is being tested to see how deeply integrated have the choices been made to stand up against ignorance, racism, prejudice and wanton greed and corruption. One of those tests that Darkness has thrown at Light has been veiled behind the attachment to opinion and belief.
(Extract from Emotional Storm, the New Moon in Mutable Water, by Andrew Smith, to be published shortly on
Andrew Smith © 2017