Agent Ei’s Planetary Diary

by Andrew Smith

The Red Diary on the day after the Fixed Water New Moon on the 19th November as Mars squares Pluto

The day after the dawn and you can feel a subtle, yet compelling, internal pressure burning through you, agitating your soul to act, unreasonably revving things up and enveloping you in an almost breathless embrace. You can feel something shift within you, you can sense that you are on the threshold of something utterly immense, and you can feel an overpowering sense that something has to give, that something is about to happen, that something huge is on the horizon.

Frightening? Yep! Exciting? Unquestionably!! What lies ahead is not only phenomenal, it also feels overpowering. And the heat… what heat! Blinding, pulsing, effervescent, consuming, draining, exhausting and liberating all at once.  The rage and frustration of the unspoken life yet to be actualised, psychically held back by you because have feared rejection and being abandoned by those who feel you are too strong and too capable; the primal alpha masculine reaction, struggling to overcome its wanton fighting spirit, so that you can channel it towards the actualisation of your soul’s intent; the insatiable desire and hunger that has arisen from the depths of within; the raw maniacal look that gives you an almost insane look and terrifying eyes; and the indomitable determination… how can you cope with such intensity raging within you, like a tornado ripping its way through a smouldering volcanic landscape. Now that you have immersed yourself within YOUR lake, you can feel the raw power surge through your veins like the waters damned up for too long that have breached and are pouring through the cracks, soon to become gaping crevices.

How to harness it? How to fight it? How to embrace it? How to deal with it? Can you deal with it? That is what you will discover over the coming days…

Good luck and gOd help those around you!!!!!!!

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Turquoise Diary on the 17th November as Uranus is quincunxed by Sol ahead of the New Moon in Fixed Water
 
Without remaining true to your authentic spirit, enlightenment is not possible, since authenticity is the state of being committed to truth, YOUR truth. Truth is simple and no matter how simply a truth can be stated, it is something revealed when you walk the path of understanding and evolution on your own. This path is the one least travelled since it requires a clarity of being in which there is no self-deceit, a difficult task to undertake given the prevalence of distractions, whose sole purpose is to keep you at bay, rendering your light insignificant and dulling you down. As you live in alignment with your truth, when you step back from your teachers, and when you shed from your mind, body and soul the seductive sedatives, you start to live freely and therefore your light can openly and unlimitedly express itself through you.
 
As this sacred dimension of your life further awakens, so too the necessity to listen to what your gut is saying arises more powerfully so that you ‘feed’ yourself only with that which nourishes and sustains, reconnecting with the effervescent nocturnal world and honouring your sacred connection to life, realising its wholeness and recognising the interconnections that form the web of life. Everything, every act, even every thought, affects the whole and during this time you can feel life to speak through you as it communicates the secrets of creation so that you can participate in the wonder that is being born. It is time to return home, to claim what belongs to you, this sacred life of which you are a part. This is what is waiting for you and its signs are ever present, pervading your consciousness at all levels. Agitating your soul through discontent, magic can begin to appear, like the wing beats of angels you cannot see but can feel as you are being reminded of who you truly are and of the divine presence that is lies within.
 
Andrew Smith ©2017 (The last paragraph is extracted from The Bridge – The New Moon in Fixed Water on the 18th November)
 

The Venus Diaries on the 16th November as Fixed Water Venus octiles Mutable Fire Saturn

How have you been navigating the turbulent waters of the visceral pain body these stormy days? Have you succumbed to seductive whispers of the jailer, enticing you back into your cell where you can sup in safety from a diet of fear and vitriolic indignation? Has apathy won without a fight as you shrug your shoulders and turn your back? Have you fallen foul of those enemies of your soul that rejoice in your shutting up and accepting your fate, since you are only one person and cannot possibly change? Or have you embraced these tests to your values, stood firm against the agents of the anaesthetic, rejected the sweet temptation of the blue pill and dared to believe that your compassion, your unconditional love, your heart based reality and your living your truth can make a difference? You have within you the power to change your world. All you need do is to make the areas of your life where compassion and love struggle to grow, your true work.

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Angelic Diary on the 12th November 2017 as Venus and Jupiter unite in Fixed Water

Over the next day, our consciousness experiences the embrace of archangels Ani-el (the joy of gOd) and Tzadki-el (the prayer of gOd).

Aniel’s presence enables you to develop and maintain a harmonious relationship with God and those souls that you come into contact with; to heal emotionally from stress and sorrow; to discover creative inspiration for artistic projects as well as to increase their productivity; and to help you find hope. Tzadkiel’s presence radiates comfort to you when you are afraid, wounded or grieving; kindles a desire for spiritual development in your heart; affords you forgiveness, gentleness and benevolence.

If you are seeking to heal your heart-body; to reconnect to what joy means; to seek comfort if you are feeling insecure; to open your heart in complete trust of life, of love and of spirit, tonight is the night to hold a space for grace to fill you; joy to flow through your heart and for pure radiant abundance and love to emanate from your spirit. May this moment be the ground from which all your further actions and intentions find manifestation.

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Venus Diaries on the 7th November as Venus ingresses into Fixed Water and conjoins the Ceres/Pluto midpoint

Her slumber over, Her awakening inevitable, silver-white becomes red as the matrix in which She is held morphs, as she firmly, but quietly whispers – “I carry within me the force of men and women”. Heat spirals up and down, opening, cleansing, purifying, compelling, fuelling her soul to action, uniting the coolness of reason with the flame of being, giving her emotions a solid ground from which she can penetrate and experience the mysteries of her Inner world, her dark, her home, her womb…

Willing to dissolve, eager to embrace nothingness, the earth shakes and the fire rises towards the light, so that the light can finally see inside – earth unites with heaven and all that is contained between is given form and life, as the snake becomes the dragon and the dragon becomes the phoenix.

Profound medicine is afoot for those who venture in to reach without; profound healing is moving through you as the pillar within ignites and connects the above with the below and the within with the without.

Take yourself into, or envision in your minds eye, an area of nature that holds special healing energy for you, holding the intention of igniting the inner serpent, or pillar. Envision its energy move in a spiral manner along this pillar from your root star to your seventh heaven, spiralling up and down, connecting and uniting, deepening and heightening. Breathe through the heat and light; breathe through heaven; breathe through earth; feeling the strength of the land flow through you; feeling the wisdom of the stars reach your crown. Taking note of what vision you are given, give thanks and gratitude for the power of Her through you, as you release the metal in your bones and feel the earth shake beneath you.

Welcome the serpent, the dragon and the phoenix back to your heart.

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Earth and Turquoise Diaries on the 6th November as Saturn trines Uranus

Vision without either substance or commitment will remain lingering within your mind’s eye, taunting and jeering you, always just out of reach, ever hopeful and never real. It is the recipe for disappointment and disillusionment, bitterness and resentment as you live in the future, as opposed to the present and dream of what could be as opposed to what will be.

Fortunately reliable and honest builders have been found, their tools ready and a good project manager is at hand to oversee the emerging structure to house your innovations. As you prepare to ground and earth the musings of your inner eye, your new ideals are tempered by sensibility and common sense, offering them a matrix within which they can manifest as progress meets healthy caution and reform is toned-down by moderation. Incredibly productive, your creative genius is being offered the opportunity to find a solid place in your life through patient perseverance and accommodating structures that can give form and solidity to what would normally be flights of fancy. Over the coming weeks, opportunities will present themselves to progress along a Path wherein your authentic being can feel liberated, refreshed and re-invigorated. Yes, a risk will be required; yes, it will feel at the time like a leap of faith; and yes, it will feel mad to leave behind you that which is familiar… but, and this is a constructive ‘but’, your vision is neither sentimental or naïve but bright because it is creative, subversive, autonomous and a true representation of your authentic being. Your vision is central to your being and your creativity and something to be honoured and worked through you, as opposed to left wilting for the ‘perfect’ conditions to come together. They are here and now.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Photography by Philippe Sainte-Laudy

The Deep Brown Diary on the 5th November as Saturn squares Chiron

Quietly, in deep contemplation, you have been observing those perimeters that contain and house you, many of which you are starting to truly realise serve the purpose of merely keeping your unbridled creativity in. Complex feelings have arisen at this boundary – excitement within this uncertainty; fear but a compelling ‘push’ to break out; sadness as the thought of leaving the familiar; jOy at the thought of re-defining your life on your terms; frustration, that it has taken this long to realise that many of those strictures are not truly yours; hope, as you cease to play the game and unleash the power that is you.

No longer willing to accept being contained, a power is awakening within you; no longer eager to be puppeteered by your ancestral history; no longer eager to be drained of your creativity by living within someone else’s time line; no longer believing that you are damaged goods, unable to be whole and self-sustainable; no longer willing to play the game, a new creativity awakens in you, as the mystery of your inner landscape is revealed by the cracks in the walls widen. It is your time to walk through. It is your time to cross this threshold.

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The gOld and Silver Diary as the Moon Fulls in Tropical Fixed Earth
 
It’s been a frenetic past few weeks – heart deep in reflection; mind stalled amidst a swirling tornado of busyness; emotions vacillating; spirit at times both weary and alive with insight; energy levels feel as if all you can do is push through; sleep, well who needs a full night of it anymore?; eating, again, why oh why can’t you eat anything anymore!; and the speed to which time has moved… And that is before you contemplating the scale of processing that has gone on! Old heart-scripts standing resolute in the face of a new heart-dawn; persistent thought-forms that cast the shadow of doubt over those fledgling promises you have made to engage in relationships that feel comfortable but not familiar; copious distractions in the form of tedious legislative and administrative speedbumps, minor as they are, lengthy to sort out; and the on-going battle to keep you in a constant state of fear and anxiety as the double-speak volume has been turned up on the various media outlets.
 
And it is all testing the commitment you made six and a half months ago when you – promised yourself that you would listen to your body; not to permit anyone or anything that is toxic to ‘penetrate’ you energetically/ physically/ emotionally and spiritually; to honour the spirit that reside within you, as well as the spirit that exists within all things, living and ‘inanimate’; to make time to hone and care for your talents and skills so that you can make a sustainable living from what you lOve as opposed to do what needs to be done for someone else; and to slow down your life, listening to what your body is truly saying and honouring your gut’s intelligence (and not your mind or pocket) when it comes to decision making.
 
So under the full illumination of this Fixed Earth lunation that 26th April commitment cannot be ignored. Have you listened? Have you slowed? Have you honoured the spirit that reside within your temple? Have you respected the spirit within another, even if you have felt aggrieved? Have you given permission to truly release the tension that has built within you, as it builds so that you allow those feelings and thoughts pass through you as opposed to permitting them to build their community within you? If not, breathe in with me, focusing on the tension wherever it is in your body and exhale loudly – HOOOOOWLLLLLLL…
 
Enjoy the moment… it has already gone…
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
The Hypnogogic Diary on the 3rd November as Chiron quincunxes Venus and squares Saturn
The horizon blurred, boundaries constantly shifting, nothing feels solid as the sky becomes the land and the land dissolves beneath your feet with every step you take. Your body no longer copes with ingesting what it has become accustomed to; your mind no longer accepts Pavlov’s leash; your emotions freely flowing, yet ebbing back and forth like a sea in a storm; your spirit, flattened in exasperation at how deep fear has turned to concrete the souls of those you lOve. It feels as if everything is breaking apart as the earth heaves its heavy heart in sadness at how the turn the dream has taken. It feels as if there is no refuge to flee from this insanity.
 
Yet, within this semi-dream like state, the rules no longer apply and boundaries do not exist. It feels like chaos. It feels, at time, overwhelming. It feels destabilising. But this is good!
 
Yes, it is good! Have you thought that perhaps the horizon is blurred and the boundaries are shifting so that those scripts and patterns whose chains have kept you at bay are loosened within this malleable state? Have you thought that the perhaps the reason why your relationships are no longer working is because you can finally ‘see’ the puppets guiding strings and you no longer feel like colluding with the game? Have you thought that within this translucent space, perhaps the reason those enemies of your soul roam more freely than before is so you can ‘see’ through their terrifyingly ugly façade to the isolated and terrified figure whose hands feverishly work the levers behind the safety of the green curtain?
 
Your relationships are not broken; your career has not stalled; your family has not fallen apart; you are merely no longer willing to confirm to the insanity of avoiding the naked Emperor; you are no longer eager to give of your unlimited creativity and energy to feed someone or something that takes and takes in a one way relationship; you are no longer bound by those external fears and control mechanisms, whose purpose merely serves to enslave you and keep you small; and you are no longer hungry to remain emotionally invested to those who are not prepared to do the necessary, and honest, soul work or to connect to those who cling to the illusion of how things ‘should’ be.
 
The rules have changed; the world is not solid; the chains are breaking; the Eye has opened…
 
Will you roll with it or try to cling on to that which is familiar?
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
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The Hypnogogic Diary on the 2nd November as Chiron trines Mercury, squares Saturn and octiles the Sun
Doesn’t it feel altogether surreal out there in ‘everyday’ land? Eerily surrounded by ground hogs rearing their heads to peer out at you, the frustrating feeling of walking the same ground, time and time again surrounds your heart, as you wonder what you can truly do to break out of this dream-like landscape.
You are doing your work; you are facing down your inner enemies; you are healing from the arrogance and disconnect of the masculine ego; you are diving deeper into the rabbit hole to better understand the ancestral roots of the issues that puppeteer you path IN the world; you are exploring the deeper patterns and scripts that lie beneath the way in which you perceive your world; and you are seeking to understand why pain feels like a necessary part of being human, and yet it all feels so cyclical, as you realise that you have done this all before, time and time again…
 
But is it truly the same? Are you not getting faster within your process? Are you not spotting the dysfunctionality of the masculine light quicker; are you not finding new angles to deal with those who speak a ‘good game’; are you not noticing that on each loop, you are seeing a different path out? Healing takes time, as it reveals layer upon layer of process, and its spiral nature means that you get to experience an echo of the original wound, which gradually fades as you consciously face its multifaceted being within the physical, mental, emotional and eventually spiritual level.
 
What feels intense about this time is that you are walking between worlds at the moment! All memories from all wounded experiences with men/ the patriarchy/ the obsession with becoming/ and your masculine light across all space and all time, have surfaced and you cannot avoid dealing with the isolation, the frustration, the disappointment that arises from expectation and entitlement and the sadness that the masculine is so damaged… All you can do is acknowledge this part of Self and decide whether you choose to feed the wound, or heal it. Sometime healing it means not feeding into those who flourish in ignorance; sometimes healing means speaking up; sometime healing means not colluding with those who attempt to ‘bring you down’; sometimes healing means walking away, even from those you lOve. But healing is all you can do and in time, yes, in time, your outer world will reflect the health of your inner world. For now, however, you need to decide, were you born to resist or be abused? Were you born to spread light and remain authentic or to merge into the grey monochrome conditions of the flatlands?
 
It is your light, your life, your chains, your choice. There is profound healing taking place. Profound. And you can banish the ground hogs. Now. Today.
 
Will you?
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
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The gOld and Black diary on the 1st November as the Sun octiled Saturn

Ah the defences of the masculine ego… So much to deal with, yet it is so hard to admit that you feel vulnerable. So you let busyness, pushing and achieving in the world distract you to the point that so much is missed and the gap builds between what is truly needed and what you think you should do.

You know that what is needed is to take some time yet that push to do, shelving that well intended meaning to go inwards. Even tiredness has visited you, a fatigue with no concrete origin, in an attempt to slow you down and force you inwards, inwards so that you can face that more intimate side of your soul; so that you can release those fears that keep you from experiencing true intimacy; so that you can truly embrace your femininity and in turn, those who live through their femininity.

So do you want to keep pushing those who want to embrace you away? Do you want to live in union but never truly experience the meaning of union? Do you want to live in a flat, monochrome world, happy with what you have achieved and striven for, yet unfulfilled and emotionally bereft? Hell no, I hear you say. So what is stopping you turning inwards and truly tuning into your emotional intelligence, listening to her voice and overcoming your pride and egoic defences that serve only to isolate you? You’ve felt the pull in recent days. So down you go, if even only for half an hour…

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Gold Diary on the 23rd October as the Sun dives into The Lake
Heightened emotions; deep processing of ancient emotional patterns and scripts involuntarily invoked; sharpened senses and a body no longer to take any form of toxicity, at any level, your world has been awash with a vast range of emotions that has prompted you to speak up and speak out. But understanding the roots of ‘why’ may not have come as yet, making the entire process intensely emotional, as the rawness of your body and soul’s experiences have needed to be unleashed, so that you can feel how truly in touch you are with your inner world and how comfortable are you with the open and unadulterated expression of your feeling nature; how healthy and healed are the patterns shaped by your family; and how willing are you to give into the power and depth of your emotional-body?
 
Today, as the Masculine Light dons his swimming trunks, stands over The Lake and eagerly eyes the Depth beneath him, you are being invited to consciously dive head long into your own emotional depths and heal, release and let go any emotional attachments that are no longer serving a constructive part of your life’s journey, so that you can release your Light from your suffering (created by the illusion of separation) and, in time, become truly whole. The power of your emotions that can now emerge without censorship and without judgement is one of the features of this next four weeks as the extent of your true feeling nature revealed, thereby facilitating a deep healing within the very open expression of your inner world within the world around you.
 
As you have to enter The Lake, the question remains – will you freely dive in or will you need to a push???
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
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The Red Diary on the 13th October as Mars has squared Saturn

Increasingly conscious of your libindal energies, you have been challenged to find ways to conserve and focus your energy levels, as opposed to eagerly and willingly dissipating them through busyness and diversity. “Less is more” is an ideal mantra to chant through this wading through treacle time, as your natural passion and enthusiasm is tested through a more restrictive or conservative matrix. Taking many forms – be it an authoritative archetype manifesting as someone or something forcing you to slow down, a muscle or bone injury or an over packed schedule that gets too much – this test ends in the same way: you are being ‘encouraged’ to slow down. There is no point pushing or engaging your “ego driven warrior”. Now is not a time to prove yourself. It is merely a time to review the quality of the activities into which you expend your vital life force and to find differing structures to house your soul within.

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Venus Diaries on the 9th October as Venus squares Saturn

Has your heart been worn down and in danger of solidifying into stone or have you been able to consistently radiate lOve regardless of life’s vicissitudes? Have you been able to keep your heart held high when the easy path is to descend in the darker alley, mirroring those who have mistreated or judged you?  Have you continued to live what you lOve or is living within two worlds more appealing – the life you live and the life that comes to you, late at night, when you unplug from the intentionally designed busy modern life and relax; get drunk or high; when you daydream, imagine, reflect and long? The heart war has waged strongly these past days and continues to wage so that you can clearly define what you lOve and to test how strong your convictions are to stick to this path, when it is all so easy to return to the path well-trodden. Which path are you choosing?

Andrew Smith ©2017

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The Silver Diary on the 5th October as the Moon Fulls in tropical Aries

It feels like an eternity ago when you planted a seed on the 28th March to reignite the flame of wonder within you and now, six and a half months later, you can feel how strong that flame burns. Tonight you stand witness to the raw, naked, unhindered expression of beingness of your soul; a quality of being; the ‘You’ as expressed directly from the source; tonight you are offered the opportunity to experience an opening to the inexplicable vastness, the weirdness, the overwhelming profundity, the utter miracle and magic of life, of yourself, and of all that is. Tonight you can pay homage to the path you have been on; to the challenges you have faced down from those who have attempted to veer you off this Innocent Path; to the distractions that have attempted to anchor you to a state of being that dishonours your essential self; to the confidence that courses through your veins, as you reflect on how much you have grown in strength as you have stood firm, kept true and continue to see the world without jaded cynicism. Tonight you can display that spirit of oneness which will allow you to create absolute miracles in what you achieve; allow yourself to play; to take risks and to embrace any fears and doubts that you may have.

Let rip; let roar; let rave.

HOOOWWWLLLL

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Venus Diary on the 4th October as Venus and Mars couple in Virgo the early morning skies

LOve is neither out there nor something lost that you have to seek; lOve is not something that you have to fight for or that comes with promises broken; lOve neither judges nor bargains; lOve does not expect; lOve is not skin deep; lOve is not merely about the spell of someone’s beautiful words; lOve is not just about the physical, or the mental, or the emotional or the spiritual, but about all; lOve is not just about the jOy and happiness, but shows itself in those darker moments when hope is lost and pain has gripped you; lOve is kind; lOve is honest; lOve does not lie. Love can experience those conditions but not lOve, and for many it has been hard to lOve; it has been hard to feel it; it has been hard to show compassion when the masculine ego is waging so much destruction, engaged in so many lies, and is hell bent on worshiping getting on and getting ahead.

For weeks anxiety has reigned; for weeks, judgement has overtaken discernment; for weeks, lOve has felt like a distant memory; for weeks, libidinal energies have felt lost or misused; for weeks, fractioning and splintering has spoiled the view of the bigger picture, a picture where lOve has lingered in the background and quiet, unseen acts of kindness, compassion and altruism have been ever so active.

In the coming hours, ‘heart’ and ‘will’ align, affording an invitation to refresh and renew your receptivity to channel lOve towards yourself and in turn towards all those who orbit your soul. As lOve and desire are united, you are offered the opportunity to direct lOve into your world, with a renewed sense of vigour and passion, a passion that does not have expectation of return, or a desire to be noticed.

Remember that lOve is the gentle path; lOve does not parade itself or call itself the Greatest; lOve heals that which prevents you from returning to a whole or virginal state. And that sort of lOve is what you are and what you are capable of. Tonight you are consciously embodying lOve. Tonight you are radiant lOve. Tonight is the start of ‘seeing’ that lOve has always been and always will be, regardless of the distractions and pain of the masculine ego.

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Indigo Diary on the 1st October as Jupiter opposes Uranus, trioctiles Neptune and Uranus and Neptune continue to octile.

In the end, true freedom arises by living your truth and living healthily with whom and what you lOve and living without attachment to what goes on around you. Freedom does not come from without – from striving to materially advance yourself at the expense of your relationships, your body and your mind; or from justifying your actions in the pursuit of getting ahead, when you know you have just created a karmic bind from which you will inevitably return; or from toppling and replacing one regime with another. Freedom from within arises as you walk the path of liberation, an initially painful and lonely experience as you face down those promises broken to those in your life or those compromises and justifications made for the common good and you overcome the attachment to making money at the expense of your soul. Freedom from within arises as you de-colonise from the conditions set by those who set laws or who tell you what to think or believe in. Freedom arises from within when you realise that you have wings and you don’t have to crawl. Freedom arises when you live your truth, a truth that does not negatively impinge on another, a truth that lives in consort with all of humanity and nature. This time is all about staying true to your inner convictions and raising your head when all those around you lower theirs; this time is about seeing through the distractions, the lies and the hollow promises from those you know and don’t know; this time is about turning inwards; this time is utterly profound and utterly chaotic. To gain freedom without, you have to seek it within.

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Hope Diary on the 28th September as the Gas Giants wail in 8th harmony – Jupiter, Uranus and Neptune

Blown wide open, the matrix cleaved, the puppeteers exposed and yet they continue to pull on the strings in the broad daylight, cockily confident that the drugs they’ve been pumping into the water and air, along with the barrage of fear, greed and taxes has numbed you to the point that apathy has won without a fight. Even though their lying truths and truthful lies have been exposed; even though you know that freedom is but an illusion beneath the cranes on an ever heightening skyline; even though it is all moving at light speed and you feel that you cannot express what’s on your mind and in your heart; and even though you can see the filament threads ensorcelling the hearts and minds of those devouring the blue pill, they continue to laugh as you continue to prove Einstein’s theory of insanity.

But, and there is a but, have you ever thought that perhaps one of the reasons why your senses are so heightened, so enlivened, so reactive is to help you see through the spin? Have you thought that perhaps the reason why you are reducing your alcohol, coffee and sugar intake, moving towards live and raw food is not simply to rid yourself of your softened body and mind, but so that you can feel, hear and see more clearly? Have you thought that perhaps why you no longer jump to your feed or read the papers is because you no longer want to be part of the lie and so you can think for yourself and realise that you are not broken and your dream cannot be stolen?

It is all so transparent now. So transparent. And you know what – you don’t have to accept it. You have the ability to not feed the greed or play their game. You have your principles and ethics and you can make a difference. Will you sit in similar consort, rejoicing in apathy’s walk over? Or will you focus on the filaments that continue to bind you to this world, freeing yourself fully and showing the way for others to join you?

Which will you choose?

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Indigo Diary on the 26th September as Jupiter opposes Uranus

Awareness of what you truly believe, the underlying scripts that puppeteer your perception and an insight into whether you are genuinely living within a set of core doctrines that support your sense of freedom and growth as an individual is central to this uneasy time. Arising through circumstances beyond your control and immediate awareness, you are either being confronted by, or receiving confirmation of, how you believe, what growth means to you and whether you are truly free to expand in whatever way you choose. The more colonised and indoctrinated you are, the more likely the external world will present to you a series of ‘opportunities’ to explore any residual prejudices and erroneous assumptions, that have spawned your world view. The more open you genuinely are, the greater the growth, the greater the insight and the more free (truly free) you will feel you are. Just remember that the term confrontation really means to face someone or something and ironically it is a perfect way to make peace with some sort of issue!

Andrew Smith © 2017

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The Venus and Dark Moon Diary on the 19th September as Venus continues to reign high as the Morning Star

During a time when time has slipped; chaos feels normal; broken sleep has made it the world feel dreamlike; doubletalk is acceptable; and exasperation is commonplace, it is easy to forget that the Heart lights the way.

Rising high above the light of the masculine ego, the blue-white light of love shines brightly each and every dawn, reminding you that from love, you are born; from love, you can overcome the blinding luminosity of the ego; from love, you can bridge between anyone and anything.

So my hope for you, for us during this time of the Dark Moon, is that you look with the One eye to see what the Two cannot; that you see through the diffuseness that masks an ever changing landscape; that you know in your heart that what binds you is being eroded and dissolved; that you are being called to look in and not out to find freedom and truth; that you stand resolute and firm to those ideals that bring you closer to lOve, even if it is easy to react from a place of fear and anger; and that you know that as you face the chaos, wholeness is eventually created. An opening into the stillness that lies beneath the chaos is there for you to embrace in the days leading up to the New Moon, wherein you can find a peace you may not think is possible and within which you can see what shimmers within this emotional storm and how that has become a legacy within your body. You are being given the opportunity to let what distracts and divides you cease as you can walk into this opening into the quiet that lies beneath this chaos where peace and wholeness co-exist and where you can truly bring into being your souls deeper wisdom.

Andrew Smith © 2017, Extracted from Wholeness and Unity – the New Moon in Mutable Earth, available to read on www.cosmicintelligenceagency.com

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The Dark Moon Diary on the 17th September as the Moon moves into her Balsamic Phase                                          

A New Moon is an invitation in consciousness to re-fresh and re-new your relationship to one facet of your overall consciousness and this coming September it is the turn of the Mutable Earth or Virgoan consciousness, an aspect of your being that seeks to return to a virginal, or whole, state so that you can actively and compassionately participate in contributing to the Whole.

In the days leading up to this renewal, can I ask you to reflect on whether there exists some part of you that has become bound and therefore has splintered you from feeling both Whole (Virgo) and Unified (Pisces)? Do you recognise what is holy and crave its blessing but fear the change that would be involved? Is there a habit, a belief, a relationship, an aspect of your life that has you in its grip that confines you, that limits the freedom with which you move through this world? Can you envision what being truly free of that bind would feel like? Have you taken the time to confront, at all levels of your consciousness, the issue/ person/ situation and what they truly represent for you, so that you can free yourself of that which keeps you from feeling Whole?

Today is a time to release;  today is a time to hold a space as you prepare to receive; today is a time to enter the Dark and to emotionally pause as you prepare to offer up that which binds you.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Extracts from Wholeness and Unity – the New Moon in Mutable Earth

Photo is Earthshine in August by Pikes Peak Photo

The Turquoise and Neon Diary on the 15th September as Uranus and Neptune octile

“the underlying unity in our collective, the Path has felt increasingly decompartmentalised, fragmented, isolated and splintered, so far removed from the seed that was planted some twenty four years ago when a gap in consciousness to eliminate the divide between waking and sleeping consciousness opened up, accelerating, for many, their feel of time; encouraging a ’conscious’ thinning of the division within the various layers of consciousness; opening up a deeper understanding of ‘spiritual’ technology as humanity have projected their ‘pyramidal’ anthropomorphic structures into those ethereal realms; enabling imagination-technology to flow more freely, which in turn has transformed humanities use of physical technology as the gap between innovation and manifestation shortens; the increased dissatisfaction and disenfranchisement at the way in which the systems designed for another humanity remain has ‘consciously’ intensified over the past several months as a specific planetary archetypal coupling has reached a ‘sensitive’ turning point in its one hundred and seventy one year synodical cycle.”

Extract from Wholeness and Unity – the New Moon in Mutable Earth by Andrew Smith © 2017, available via newsletter and www.cosmicintelligenceagency.com

Art by Alkven

The Orange Diary on the 12th September as Mercury trioctiles Pluto

In a world full of opinions concerning what to believe it, what is truth, what is appropriate, what is real, how you should live, think and be, it can be hard to hear your own voice and to understand who is truly creating your reality. After all, the closer you come to knowing that you alone create the world of your experience, the more vital it becomes for you to discover just who is doing the creating. So as your mind descends into a deeper place, which for some will be dark and for others profoundly still; as your mind dives into the deepest waters of your consciousness, swimming within your Deep and amidst the dark, cool waters of your minds eyes, the projections of your mental body onto this dimmed canvas can offer you the opportunity to understand how your mind really works and to discover who is really in charge of your consciousness – you or someone or something else?

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Clare Aime

The Neon and Turquoise Diary on the 10th September as Uranus octiles Neptune

Senses enlivened, through the spin you see clearly the distractions that bind souls to a way of being that is designed to prevent your awakening; to stop you purely connecting to a deeper meaning; to keep you chained to this reality, closing you off from the holographic multiverse that you/ we live within. Insights abound as the scale of society’s comatosed behaviour is revealed and you can see the filament threads ensorcelling the hearts and minds of those devouring the blue pill. Painful to witness and disheartening, your focus is jarred by the transparency of those insights and the sickly feeling of seeing the life force and creative spirit being sucked from humanity. What can you do? After all you are but one person. Will you sit in similar consort, rejoicing in apathy’s walk over? Or will you focus on the filaments that continue to bind you to this world, freeing yourself fully and showing the way for others to join you? That is the choice that befalls you as your soul awaits this psychonautic journey to your inner landscapes.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Mark Henson

The Red Diary on the 8th September as Mars trioctiles Pluto

A raw, unblemished, terrifying power whose unwavering strength is so powerful that you can literally move mountains with your indomitable will drives through the ether, whose conviction is so complete that you have access to a spirit to keep going, to endure beyond reason, beyond logic; whose quiet determination is so frightening and resolute that no-one could ever question your resolve; and whose passion is so elemental that when unleashed can consume and engulf you to a point that you no longer exist. There is no rule book to guide you as to how to direct it. There is no teacher that can help you understand it. There is only you and your awareness.

How do you want to channel this life give/ life destroying energy is entirely up to you! But remember, with great power comes massive responsibility, a responsibility that transcends beyond morality and ethics, a responsibility that has nothing to do with the smallness of your egoic Self, but a responsibility to your humanity and to gOd consciousness to honour and respect your pre-life choice to become a custodian of the most powerful, most dangerous and more fertile life force imaginable. Yet you may not fully recognise it within yourself, which is why the world is now conspiring around you to force you to connect with this primal, reptilian survival being within you during moments of peak and heightened emotional tension. It is within those moments can you glimpse that towering strength, like a patient volcano waiting to erupt, giving and taking life in its smouldering heat. It is there for you to access and use, to bring through you the elementalness of your spirit and to enable your dreams to find manifestation, even if the world around you ‘appears’ to thwart you.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Californian artist Hines

The Turquoise and Neon Diary on the 7th September as Neptune octiles Uranus
Within these Orwellian times where nothing is certain, ‘war is peace, freedom is slavery and ignorance is strength’, it may feel as if those pillars of certainty – honour and honesty are no longer stalwarts. The goalposts constantly changing within a world that is no longer solid, chaos reigning within this personal and public fog, it feels to me that within this challenging change, where even the best laid plans and commitments maybe waylaid, all you have is your personal code of integrity. Even if your heart feels lost, angry or despair at the empty promises made by the wolf in sheep’s clothing; even if you feel despondent that hope has left you; even if you feel overwhelmed by the barrage of pain, fear and loss that consumes the newstalk; even if you feel that what is not lOve thrives within this unclear land, your heart is all you can stand by.
 
Through this uncertain space, your heart continues to dream of a state of wholeness, a place where everything comes together, where loss will be made good, where blindness will transform into vision and where damage will be made whole. This is my prayer for you, for us, that you look with the One eye to see what the Two cannot; that you see through the diffuseness that masks an ever changing landscape; that you know in your heart that what binds you is being eroded and dissolved; that you are being called to look in and not out to find freedom and truth; that you stand resolute and firm to those ideals that bring you closer to lOve, even if it is easy to react from a place of fear and anger; and that you know that as you face the chaos, wholeness is eventually created.
 
This may mean diving deeper into the chaos as you may be called to acknowledge, challenge and grapple with forces that insidiously thrive within chaos, forces that often work in ways that are exceedingly subtle and cloaked, or embodied within a ‘noble’ soul who in the clear light of day is a wolf in sheep’s wool. Facing further into those empty promises and standing resolute in the belief that lOve will prevail, whilst at the same time compassionately calling out those whose empty words overlie a perfidious reality may not feel lOving
 
For today, let there be an opening into the stillness that lies beneath the chaos, where you find the peace you did not think possible and see what shimmers within the storm.
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
Extract from Embodiment of chaos, The New Moon in Mutable Earth on the 20th Sept, to be published shortly
 
Image from the cover of “Happy in a Hostile World” by Dr. Carl Patrasso. Photographed by unknown
The Silver Diary on the 6th September as the Moon Fulls in Pisces
Six and a half months on from the seed you planted to no longer become a wave in the ocean, but become THE ocean, you are now ‘feeling’ the full force of your emotional body in all levels of your world. Deeply emotional, ebbing to and fro within this free flowing fluid exchange of emotional charged light between you and everyone and everything within your world, the question of how you have truly embodied your feeling nature; whether you have listened to your emotional intelligence; and how puppeteered you are by your emotions is now viscerally transparent for you and the world to experience. In the same way that the Dark has been fighting hard to survive against the increasing numbers of those that are remembering they are Light, that external battle has been mirrored within you, as those darkened emotions that bind and enslave you have been roaming freely, trying desperately to find safe ground to make their home.
 
Quietly beside you, as you swim along this e-moting and e-nlightening path, forgiveness, acceptance and compassion have been your allies, ever shielding you from those whose blindness has emotionally done you harm. Within these warming waters, your Light is spreading and your gOdness prevailing, even though the waters you’ve swum through have been at times treacherous. The double talk echoing from those within your world has been ignored as you have learnt to look past those beautifully crafted words to the deeper intent of a small and damaged ego that has tried to impose itself on an already faltering ego-driven world, holding steadfast to your commitment to Being as opposed to doing. It may be a quiet, non-invasive path, as opposed to a world filled with selfie-vlogging, but as you have sought to reclaim those deeper emotional weaves lingering from your ancestral lines, the health of your inner world is now gently spilling over the inky-blue carpet.
 
A wave is not IN the ocean. A wave is THE ocean.
 
You are THAT ocean.
 
Whatever you feel within your web, you create for everyone else. Your heart, your imagination, your inspiration and your emotions create reality for each and every-one. The healing you have done, in turn heal your world. The forgiveness you feel, washes over us all. As you release your pain, you help us release our pain.
 
Thank you for what you have released. Thank you for the deep processing you have done. Thank you for your healing medicine and the clearing out you have done. Thank you.
 
As the Moon fulls, there is only one thing to do – feel in and feel out. Feel in and feel out.
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
Photographer unknown

The Gold Diary on the 5th September as the Sun opposes Neptune and trioctiles Uranus and Mercury turns Direct

The past three weeks have been about taking the time to draw on your listening-imagination so that you can truly hear your gentle voice within the heart of your life, a voice that is clearer, deeper and more relevant than that critical voice of anxiety, judgement and disappointment. Surrounded by emotional distractions, deceit and empty promises of union or of a ‘brighter’ future, your ego has been through the wringer, toss and tumbled like a feather in a storm.

Yet as you have truly listened and planted a new seed ten days ago, the enchanting veils of illusion that have become the standard bearer have been pierced. Reality as it was, is no longer. Squandering yourself on foods, people and situations that deplete your essence no longer feels apt, relevant or even meaningful as the hooks that bind you to those unkind situations are released. Sadness may grace your path as you step off this treadmill and quit the soap opera, but today as you stand and face illusion; today, as clarity of your heart abounds; today, as your mind is filled with insight to move forward; today, as you can see what you have always known in your heart to be true; today, you can ‘feel’ past the pain of regret, you are landing with steady feet on the earth, a safe haven within this mental and heartfelt tumult. Be gentle, my friend, for there were no mistakes, just deep learning; be compassionate towards all that you have experienced, they were just that, experiences; be kind, because those agents are on their own path and may not realise what they have done; be thankful, as the emotional bonds that trap you are released; be jOyfilled as a new energy and passion awakens within you; and just be, as your mind turns out from in.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Photo of Magician Dynamo

The Orange Diary on the 4th September as Mercury trines Uranus

Faster than a speeding bullet, the ideas burst through you, exploding into your consciousness, instantaneously inspirational and deeply insightful, opening your mind further, exciting and enlivening you and then… gone as quickly as they arrived. Perhaps it is not necessary for everything to land and settle; perhaps the Muse is only meant cross the Veil for a second, reminding that the world is not horizontal and a lot more colourful than your greying education has painted; but come on… so not fair, after all you have just had such clarity, conviction and surety move through you, as if the caul has lifted from your eyes and you are seeing everything afresh and renewed, almost as if you had been lifted from your own life and were seeing through an alien’s perspective. All ten senses awakened, your mind joined with your heart, knowledge rapidly transmitted, your perception altered irrevocably, as your body experiences and knows, even if the mind cannot retain. Utterly invigorating and totally genius, your life will not be the same again.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Artist Marcel Caram

The Orange Diary on the 4th September as Mercury trines Uranus

Faster than a speeding bullet, the ideas burst through you, exploding into your consciousness, instantaneously inspirational and deeply insightful, opening your mind further, exciting and enlivening you and then… gone as quickly as they arrived. Perhaps it is not necessary for everything to land and settle; perhaps the Muse is only meant cross the Veil for a second, reminding that the world is not horizontal and a lot more colourful than your greying education has painted; but come on… so not fair, after all you have just had such clarity, conviction and surety move through you, as if the caul has lifted from your eyes and you are seeing everything afresh and renewed, almost as if you had been lifted from your own life and were seeing through an alien’s perspective. All ten senses awakened, your mind joined with your heart, knowledge rapidly transmitted, your perception altered irrevocably, as your body experiences and knows, even if the mind cannot retain. Utterly invigorating and totally genius, your life will not be the same again.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Artist Marcel Caram

The Blood red-Orange Diary on the 3rd September as Mercury and Mars align in Leo

On this day that births clarity and conviction, may you have the equanimity and composure not to personalise what is said of you, but to receive it with an open heart, confidence in your own essence and steady of your own light to see where another is on their journey. May you have the grace to act in kindness and the humility to know that even when you are right, you do not need to impose yourself on your world. May you have speak truth in an open and honest manner, without an agenda and without intending to ‘get one up’ on another, respecting their opinion, even if you don’t agree. May you receive the clarity of truth, speak with burning passion, yet carry lOve in your heart so that arrogance does not grip you. May your mind continue to lOve frontiers so that your childlike enthusiasm can invoke in your world all that is good, bright and life affirming. And may you carry this seed of clear thought and deft action with you in all that you do and with all whom you share your light.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Joseph Parker Dawn of the Aquarian Age (1968)

The Neon and Turquoise Diary on the 2nd September as Uranus and Neptune continue to octile

Ah the tumult… Sweeping through consciousness at every level, a raging, swirling tempest, unsettling those institutions by which we live; dissolving what has felt like reality in its wake; and thinning the barrier that has kept us safe from that which could free us. And so it has been feeling tenuous. Why? Maybe it has something to do with our obsessive drive to become the living embodiment of Einstein’s definition of stupidity as ‘we’ attempt to deal with cope with uncertainty by re-creating in the way that ‘we’ have always done and, with our fingers crossed, hope that the outcome will be somewhat different.

But it is not working.

It cannot work.

Why? Nothing, literally nothing is working the way that it should. But, my friend, there is no point struggling with any preconceived structures that have been designed to keep you comfortable – no, let’s rephrase that, that keeps those in control comfortable. The rules are not changing – they’ve already changed; the mechanisms within all systems have already dissipated and dissolved; time feels different; relationships have been irrevocably altered; duality has morphed and multiple realities co-exist; what was solid, is no longer… All you can do is to less your need to ‘clutch’ onto what appears to be real; all you can do is enter the myst and allow the Veil consume you; all you can do is surrender and let go; all you have to do is embrace the chaos and coax into being this new wave; all you can do is look with One eye and trust what you cannot see with the two.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by jee young lee

The Orange Diary on the 27th August as the Sun and Mercury start off the new Mind-Light cycle in Virgo   

And so it begins… though you may have a lot going on at other levels of your consciousness; though your heart maybe processing some delicate scripts; though your beliefs maybe in question; though your physicality maybe learning humility and your emotional body lies beneath a weight of intense emotions, may you feel the relief of a clear mind rinse through your soul, calling your eyes to see with clarity, your heart to feel with conviction and confidence, your desire to feel free to express through you with reverence and respect, and your actions align with your deeper intentions. Awakening from its slumber, may your mind stay clear and open to the possibility that you are and that those in your life are, recognising the world that lies beneath pretence and ego-posturing. It is a new mind-day, it is a new mind-dawn so leave behind those scripts that you’ve been called to release since the 13th. Awaken, breathe, ground and create…

Andrew Smith  © 2017

Art by Mary Southard ‘Earth I am’

The Venus Diaries on the 24th August as Venus trioctiles Neptune

Heart-consciousness disillusionment can arise in all forms, varying in severity but is merely one form of dis-integration, splitting off and compartmentalisation, can leave you feeling let down beyond comprehension feeling shocked, alienated and isolated and perhaps even lacking confidence regarding how you lOve, what you lOve and who you lOve. But does disillusionment really only serve to destroy? Is it not also a builder, as you alchemically create a differing reality after a period of existential crisis? You can neither ‘spiritually bypass’ nor ‘spiritualise’ a very real situation by side-stepping or repressing the uncomfortable emotions that arise, but if you let the emotions flow so that they become a tributary to the soul, all the necessary lessons are harboured there. As your heart opens up to a higher value, the illusion that your ego-heart desires is often just that – an illusion, a potent one that further binds you, preventing you from truly reaching home – that state of complete unconditional acceptance of who you are, where you are and how you are. Perhaps you could ‘blame’ the eclipses; perhaps you could blame the ‘object’ of the disappointment; perhaps you could blame yourself for your stupidity; or perhaps you could see the ‘gifts’ that are being offered as another layer of distraction is shed as you move towards a greater conscious awareness of your wholeness.

Andrew Smith © 2017
Art by Andreea Cernestean

The Red Diary on the 23rd August as Mars trines Saturn

In the same way that the Moon needs time before she becomes full, any seeds that are planted take time before they are ready to show their fledgling shoots. In a fast paced world, the savouring insights that patience gifts has been forgotten, and yet it is those insights that help to refine, strengthen and sharpen your focus on your path. Patience is not about sitting and waiting. Patience is not about learning to deal with frustration. It is about looking at the night but seeing the day; it is about reinforcing the initial vision and refining it as further information comes to light to help you gain a deeper understanding of the path that needs to be walked. That eclipse seed planted on Monday will emerge. Soon. But for now, trust, let it go and watch it grow.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Inspired by Rumi; Art by OLEG LIPCHENKO

The Gold and Silver Diary on the 21st August – The Eclipse/ New Moon in Fixed Fire

The deepest soul growth takes place within the Dark, a place wherein you cannot hide from the narrative of your Mind, projected onto a canopy that has no boundaries; that is utterly enveloping; that penetrates you to your core and offers you the opportunity to ‘see’ the truth of the health of your interiority. Without the distractions of the external world to encourage you to ignore; within the profound quietness that amplifies your inner narrative; the Dark eclipses your front and exposes who you are.

Smoothing your soul, softening your jagged edges, quietening that insufferable inner narrative, breathe in the enveloping silence of the fake night as the harsh, dazzling yet vibrant light gradually dims and diffuses like a watercolour landscape, fading eventually to grey and then painted black, as Nature pauses in quiet awe and the heat of busyness is cooled by full but gentle embrace of the Inner heart being made fully visible.

As the spark of your Inner Flame is once again re-ignited you can offer up that which tampers with your life, purrs fear in its web and has frozen your heart. Today offers you the chance to stand in the presence of your Inner World and to ‘experience’ the reality the health of your Inner Spirit and how still your Soul is. It is a wonderful occasion to observe what distractions arise within this Dark to keep you bound to ancient scripts that do not serve jOy, peace and lOve.

Offer it up, my friend, offer it up.

Andrew Smith ©2017

Here is a link to my offering on www.Cosmicintelligenceagency.com – a narrative and article on the New Moon: https://cosmicintelligenceagency.com/an-eclipse-of-your-ma…/

The Turquoise Diary on the 20th August as Neptune octiles Uranus

It felt so right to swallow the red pill, after all you sought truth, you wanted to know and now that you have opened the eye that matters and have pulled back the curtain, exposing the manipulating puppeteer, you don’t know what to do! It is hard to face the disconnect between vision and truth and the reality of how that truth and vision are applied, since it means admitting the lie and re-wiring those deeply grooved conditional scripts so that you can start to live completely in line with what you truly believe. It is too easy to pick out obvious ideological disconnects, like a meat eating, Bible quoting born again Christian carrying a gun in the glove compartment for self-defence purposes not realising the irony that “thou shalt not kill” means thou shalt not kill, but now the Veil has been pierced, you cannot but not ‘see’ how deep and subtle the disconnect runs.

During this chaotically revolutionary time, you can gain a deeper insight into ANY disconnect between vision and truth, as your surrounding world prompts you into an existential questioning of the socio-spiritual values that you have grown within and whether you are living in true alignment with those core values at EVERY level of your being – physically, economically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Those outrageous dramas that you have been experiencing are merely ‘designed’ to better understand the difference between “power over” versus “taking on your own power”, bringing into your awareness the issues of living in accord with your truth and convictions.

The blue pill can be taken and you can go back to sleep. But can you forget what your One Eye has seen? No. Even if you numb yourself with busyness, screens, worry and fear, mood altering drugs and alcohol, it isn’t really working and nightmares have been disturbing your sleep as your spirit seeks to continue to liberate itself from that which binds it fast. So you may as well continue to walk through this Veil and try to find a bridge to connect what you believe to be true with the way that you are currently living…

Andrew Smith © 2017

Screen shot from The Wizard of Oz, MGM 1939

The Neon Diary on the 19th August as Uranus octiles Neptune

It’s been ever so confusing on planet Earth of late, not knowing what to believe; what is true; what is false; what is solid; what is fantasy; what you are being told; what you are not being told; is the Earth flat or spherical; why is it that you are told that things are improving yet it feels as if the world is living in a perpetual ground hog day, as the same patterns and stories repeat, time and time again (albeit with an ever increasing technological backdrop). It feels that all news is fake and nothing Big Brother is telling you is true, as they protect their own self-serving interests under the pretence of that ever so dangerous statement “for the greater good”. Security tightens, colonisation increases, pressure rises.

But you know what is true. You know what is appropriate. You know what the right thing to do is. You know that YOU cannot compromise on your ideals, as you know that will further bind you to the Wheel, a wheel that you are trying so hard to free yourself from. And as the veil has been pierced and Light lifts through the mist, you can ‘see’ what you have known and felt. Even though your ego might be upset; even though your gut might drop; even though your heart might momentarily miss a beat, you know that you cannot compromise your inner truth – a truth your mind has been searching for as you have turned inwards towards YOUR light. That Light, the one that is eternal and can never dwindle (because of the existence of the Leonine archetype within you (that archetype about to be renewed for the second time inside of a month)), is your saving grace – from the lies of the world; from the pretence of those trying to be OF the world; from the games that are played to stock pile for some distant time in the future; from the fear that walks before the dying Darkness, whose desperate fight for survival tightens the screw of those at the top of the pyramid. Your light, your truth is all that you have, and within this clear light, the blurred boundaries are revealed and so too the actions you need to make to enable your Light to continue to burn brightly.

Don’t be disappointed with what you are now seeing. It is the insight you have needed to free your Light.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Olafur Eliasson – Beauty

The Red Diary on the 16th August as Mars quincunxes Pluto

There is a natural rhythm to the active and receptive energies within. At times your energy is strong and outgoing better enabling you to pursue your goals, to take risks and to get things accomplished. At other times, that libidinal energy is quiet and sensitive and encourages you to take the time to nurture yourself, to relax and just ‘be’ for a while. In those less vibrant moments there is no point pushing through it; there is no point trying to prove how stoic and resolute you are; there is no point getting frustrated and angry. In the same way that spring always follows winter, so too will your libido rise. If you can trust and follow this rhythm, you will attract and create everything that your soul truly needs, even if your ego disagrees.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Jaison Cianelli

The Orange Diary on the 13th August as Mercury retrogrades

Tired mind, look and see all that you have done and all that you have perceived. The world is of your making, unlimited as it is; so why hide your light from shining, when your truth will set you free. Turn inwards towards your light, staying true to your road; distancing yourself from the distractions who attempt to claim your heart during this oft maligned and misunderstood time. Your keys will be found; your contracts will be fine; your calendar will not corrupt; your data will be retrieved; and your communication will not be misunderstood as the world will not grind to a halt. Energy follows attention; attention arises from awareness; awareness stems from knowing and knowing comes from stillness. My prayer for you today is for stillness of mind and the beauty in listening to the magic that exists in your life. Look in to look out.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image by Android Jones

The gOld and Black diary on the 1st November as the Sun octiled Saturn

Ah the defences of the masculine ego… So much to deal with, yet it is so hard to admit that you feel vulnerable. So you let busyness, pushing and achieving in the world distract you to the point that so much is missed and the gap builds between what is truly needed and what you think you should do.

You know that what is needed is to take some time yet that push to do, shelving that well intended meaning to go inwards. Even tiredness has visited you, a fatigue with no concrete origin, in an attempt to slow you down and force you inwards, inwards so that you can face that more intimate side of your soul; so that you can release those fears that keep you from experiencing true intimacy; so that you can truly embrace your femininity and in turn, those who live through their femininity.

So do you want to keep pushing those who want to embrace you away? Do you want to live in union but never truly experience the meaning of union? Do you want to live in a flat, monochrome world, happy with what you have achieved and striven for, yet unfulfilled and emotionally bereft? Hell no, I hear you say. So what is stopping you turning inwards and truly tuning into your emotional intelligence, listening to her voice and overcoming your pride and egoic defences that serve only to isolate you? You’ve felt the pull in recent days. So down you go, if even only for half an hour…

Andrew Smith © 2017

Photo by unknown

The Gold Diary on the 23rd October as the Sun dives into The Lake
Heightened emotions; deep processing of ancient emotional patterns and scripts involuntarily invoked; sharpened senses and a body no longer to take any form of toxicity, at any level, your world has been awash with a vast range of emotions that has prompted you to speak up and speak out. But understanding the roots of ‘why’ may not have come as yet, making the entire process intensely emotional, as the rawness of your body and soul’s experiences have needed to be unleashed, so that you can feel how truly in touch you are with your inner world and how comfortable are you with the open and unadulterated expression of your feeling nature; how healthy and healed are the patterns shaped by your family; and how willing are you to give into the power and depth of your emotional-body?
 
Today, as the Masculine Light dons his swimming trunks, stands over The Lake and eagerly eyes the Depth beneath him, you are being invited to consciously dive head long into your own emotional depths and heal, release and let go any emotional attachments that are no longer serving a constructive part of your life’s journey, so that you can release your Light from your suffering (created by the illusion of separation) and, in time, become truly whole. The power of your emotions that can now emerge without censorship and without judgement is one of the features of this next four weeks as the extent of your true feeling nature revealed, thereby facilitating a deep healing within the very open expression of your inner world within the world around you.
 
As you have to enter The Lake, the question remains – will you freely dive in or will you need to a push???
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
Photograph credit – unknown

The Red Diary on the 13th October as Mars has squared Saturn

Increasingly conscious of your libindal energies, you have been challenged to find ways to conserve and focus your energy levels, as opposed to eagerly and willingly dissipating them through busyness and diversity. “Less is more” is an ideal mantra to chant through this wading through treacle time, as your natural passion and enthusiasm is tested through a more restrictive or conservative matrix. Taking many forms – be it an authoritative archetype manifesting as someone or something forcing you to slow down, a muscle or bone injury or an over packed schedule that gets too much – this test ends in the same way: you are being ‘encouraged’ to slow down. There is no point pushing or engaging your “ego driven warrior”. Now is not a time to prove yourself. It is merely a time to review the quality of the activities into which you expend your vital life force and to find differing structures to house your soul within.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by unknown

The Venus Diaries on the 9th October as Venus squares Saturn

Has your heart been worn down and in danger of solidifying into stone or have you been able to consistently radiate lOve regardless of life’s vicissitudes? Have you been able to keep your heart held high when the easy path is to descend in the darker alley, mirroring those who have mistreated or judged you?  Have you continued to live what you lOve or is living within two worlds more appealing – the life you live and the life that comes to you, late at night, when you unplug from the intentionally designed busy modern life and relax; get drunk or high; when you daydream, imagine, reflect and long? The heart war has waged strongly these past days and continues to wage so that you can clearly define what you lOve and to test how strong your convictions are to stick to this path, when it is all so easy to return to the path well-trodden. Which path are you choosing?

Andrew Smith ©2017

Art credit – unknown

The Silver Diary on the 5th October as the Moon Fulls in tropical Aries

It feels like an eternity ago when you planted a seed on the 28th March to reignite the flame of wonder within you and now, six and a half months later, you can feel how strong that flame burns. Tonight you stand witness to the raw, naked, unhindered expression of beingness of your soul; a quality of being; the ‘You’ as expressed directly from the source; tonight you are offered the opportunity to experience an opening to the inexplicable vastness, the weirdness, the overwhelming profundity, the utter miracle and magic of life, of yourself, and of all that is. Tonight you can pay homage to the path you have been on; to the challenges you have faced down from those who have attempted to veer you off this Innocent Path; to the distractions that have attempted to anchor you to a state of being that dishonours your essential self; to the confidence that courses through your veins, as you reflect on how much you have grown in strength as you have stood firm, kept true and continue to see the world without jaded cynicism. Tonight you can display that spirit of oneness which will allow you to create absolute miracles in what you achieve; allow yourself to play; to take risks and to embrace any fears and doubts that you may have.

Let rip; let roar; let rave.

HOOOWWWLLLL

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Venus Diary on the 4th October as Venus and Mars couple in Virgo the early morning skies

LOve is neither out there nor something lost that you have to seek; lOve is not something that you have to fight for or that comes with promises broken; lOve neither judges nor bargains; lOve does not expect; lOve is not skin deep; lOve is not merely about the spell of someone’s beautiful words; lOve is not just about the physical, or the mental, or the emotional or the spiritual, but about all; lOve is not just about the jOy and happiness, but shows itself in those darker moments when hope is lost and pain has gripped you; lOve is kind; lOve is honest; lOve does not lie. Love can experience those conditions but not lOve, and for many it has been hard to lOve; it has been hard to feel it; it has been hard to show compassion when the masculine ego is waging so much destruction, engaged in so many lies, and is hell bent on worshiping getting on and getting ahead.

For weeks anxiety has reigned; for weeks, judgement has overtaken discernment; for weeks, lOve has felt like a distant memory; for weeks, libidinal energies have felt lost or misused; for weeks, fractioning and splintering has spoiled the view of the bigger picture, a picture where lOve has lingered in the background and quiet, unseen acts of kindness, compassion and altruism have been ever so active.

In the coming hours, ‘heart’ and ‘will’ align, affording an invitation to refresh and renew your receptivity to channel lOve towards yourself and in turn towards all those who orbit your soul. As lOve and desire are united, you are offered the opportunity to direct lOve into your world, with a renewed sense of vigour and passion, a passion that does not have expectation of return, or a desire to be noticed.

Remember that lOve is the gentle path; lOve does not parade itself or call itself the Greatest; lOve heals that which prevents you from returning to a whole or virginal state. And that sort of lOve is what you are and what you are capable of. Tonight you are consciously embodying lOve. Tonight you are radiant lOve. Tonight is the start of ‘seeing’ that lOve has always been and always will be, regardless of the distractions and pain of the masculine ego.

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Indigo Diary on the 1st October as Jupiter opposes Uranus, trioctiles Neptune and Uranus and Neptune continue to octile.

In the end, true freedom arises by living your truth and living healthily with whom and what you lOve and living without attachment to what goes on around you. Freedom does not come from without – from striving to materially advance yourself at the expense of your relationships, your body and your mind; or from justifying your actions in the pursuit of getting ahead, when you know you have just created a karmic bind from which you will inevitably return; or from toppling and replacing one regime with another. Freedom from within arises as you walk the path of liberation, an initially painful and lonely experience as you face down those promises broken to those in your life or those compromises and justifications made for the common good and you overcome the attachment to making money at the expense of your soul. Freedom from within arises as you de-colonise from the conditions set by those who set laws or who tell you what to think or believe in. Freedom arises from within when you realise that you have wings and you don’t have to crawl. Freedom arises when you live your truth, a truth that does not negatively impinge on another, a truth that lives in consort with all of humanity and nature. This time is all about staying true to your inner convictions and raising your head when all those around you lower theirs; this time is about seeing through the distractions, the lies and the hollow promises from those you know and don’t know; this time is about turning inwards; this time is utterly profound and utterly chaotic. To gain freedom without, you have to seek it within.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image from wallpaperstock.net

The Hope Diary on the 28th September as the Gas Giants wail in 8th harmony – Jupiter, Uranus and Neptune

Blown wide open, the matrix cleaved, the puppeteers exposed and yet they continue to pull on the strings in the broad daylight, cockily confident that the drugs they’ve been pumping into the water and air, along with the barrage of fear, greed and taxes has numbed you to the point that apathy has won without a fight. Even though their lying truths and truthful lies have been exposed; even though you know that freedom is but an illusion beneath the cranes on an ever heightening skyline; even though it is all moving at light speed and you feel that you cannot express what’s on your mind and in your heart; and even though you can see the filament threads ensorcelling the hearts and minds of those devouring the blue pill, they continue to laugh as you continue to prove Einstein’s theory of insanity.

But, and there is a but, have you ever thought that perhaps one of the reasons why your senses are so heightened, so enlivened, so reactive is to help you see through the spin? Have you thought that perhaps the reason why you are reducing your alcohol, coffee and sugar intake, moving towards live and raw food is not simply to rid yourself of your softened body and mind, but so that you can feel, hear and see more clearly? Have you thought that perhaps why you no longer jump to your feed or read the papers is because you no longer want to be part of the lie and so you can think for yourself and realise that you are not broken and your dream cannot be stolen?

It is all so transparent now. So transparent. And you know what – you don’t have to accept it. You have the ability to not feed the greed or play their game. You have your principles and ethics and you can make a difference. Will you sit in similar consort, rejoicing in apathy’s walk over? Or will you focus on the filaments that continue to bind you to this world, freeing yourself fully and showing the way for others to join you?

Which will you choose?

Andrew Smith © 2017

The Indigo Diary on the 26th September as Jupiter opposes Uranus

Awareness of what you truly believe, the underlying scripts that puppeteer your perception and an insight into whether you are genuinely living within a set of core doctrines that support your sense of freedom and growth as an individual is central to this uneasy time. Arising through circumstances beyond your control and immediate awareness, you are either being confronted by, or receiving confirmation of, how you believe, what growth means to you and whether you are truly free to expand in whatever way you choose. The more colonised and indoctrinated you are, the more likely the external world will present to you a series of ‘opportunities’ to explore any residual prejudices and erroneous assumptions, that have spawned your world view. The more open you genuinely are, the greater the growth, the greater the insight and the more free (truly free) you will feel you are. Just remember that the term confrontation really means to face someone or something and ironically it is a perfect way to make peace with some sort of issue!

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image by 13insane37

The Venus and Dark Moon Diary on the 19th September as Venus continues to reign high as the Morning Star

During a time when time has slipped; chaos feels normal; broken sleep has made it the world feel dreamlike; doubletalk is acceptable; and exasperation is commonplace, it is easy to forget that the Heart lights the way.

Rising high above the light of the masculine ego, the blue-white light of love shines brightly each and every dawn, reminding you that from love, you are born; from love, you can overcome the blinding luminosity of the ego; from love, you can bridge between anyone and anything.

So my hope for you, for us during this time of the Dark Moon, is that you look with the One eye to see what the Two cannot; that you see through the diffuseness that masks an ever changing landscape; that you know in your heart that what binds you is being eroded and dissolved; that you are being called to look in and not out to find freedom and truth; that you stand resolute and firm to those ideals that bring you closer to lOve, even if it is easy to react from a place of fear and anger; and that you know that as you face the chaos, wholeness is eventually created. An opening into the stillness that lies beneath the chaos is there for you to embrace in the days leading up to the New Moon, wherein you can find a peace you may not think is possible and within which you can see what shimmers within this emotional storm and how that has become a legacy within your body. You are being given the opportunity to let what distracts and divides you cease as you can walk into this opening into the quiet that lies beneath this chaos where peace and wholeness co-exist and where you can truly bring into being your souls deeper wisdom.

Andrew Smith © 2017, Extracted from Wholeness and Unity – the New Moon in Mutable Earth, available to read on www.cosmicintelligenceagency.com

Art by Lilia D

The Dark Moon Diary on the 17th September as the Moon moves into her Balsamic Phase                                          

A New Moon is an invitation in consciousness to re-fresh and re-new your relationship to one facet of your overall consciousness and this coming September it is the turn of the Mutable Earth or Virgoan consciousness, an aspect of your being that seeks to return to a virginal, or whole, state so that you can actively and compassionately participate in contributing to the Whole.

In the days leading up to this renewal, can I ask you to reflect on whether there exists some part of you that has become bound and therefore has splintered you from feeling both Whole (Virgo) and Unified (Pisces)? Do you recognise what is holy and crave its blessing but fear the change that would be involved? Is there a habit, a belief, a relationship, an aspect of your life that has you in its grip that confines you, that limits the freedom with which you move through this world? Can you envision what being truly free of that bind would feel like? Have you taken the time to confront, at all levels of your consciousness, the issue/ person/ situation and what they truly represent for you, so that you can free yourself of that which keeps you from feeling Whole?

Today is a time to release;  today is a time to hold a space as you prepare to receive; today is a time to enter the Dark and to emotionally pause as you prepare to offer up that which binds you.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Extracts from Wholeness and Unity – the New Moon in Mutable Earth

Photo is Earthshine in August by Pikes Peak Photo

The Turquoise and Neon Diary on the 15th September as Uranus and Neptune octile

“the underlying unity in our collective, the Path has felt increasingly decompartmentalised, fragmented, isolated and splintered, so far removed from the seed that was planted some twenty four years ago when a gap in consciousness to eliminate the divide between waking and sleeping consciousness opened up, accelerating, for many, their feel of time; encouraging a ’conscious’ thinning of the division within the various layers of consciousness; opening up a deeper understanding of ‘spiritual’ technology as humanity have projected their ‘pyramidal’ anthropomorphic structures into those ethereal realms; enabling imagination-technology to flow more freely, which in turn has transformed humanities use of physical technology as the gap between innovation and manifestation shortens; the increased dissatisfaction and disenfranchisement at the way in which the systems designed for another humanity remain has ‘consciously’ intensified over the past several months as a specific planetary archetypal coupling has reached a ‘sensitive’ turning point in its one hundred and seventy one year synodical cycle.”

Extract from Wholeness and Unity – the New Moon in Mutable Earth by Andrew Smith © 2017, available via newsletter and www.cosmicintelligenceagency.com

Art by Alkven

The Orange Diary on the 12th September as Mercury trioctiles Pluto

In a world full of opinions concerning what to believe it, what is truth, what is appropriate, what is real, how you should live, think and be, it can be hard to hear your own voice and to understand who is truly creating your reality. After all, the closer you come to knowing that you alone create the world of your experience, the more vital it becomes for you to discover just who is doing the creating. So as your mind descends into a deeper place, which for some will be dark and for others profoundly still; as your mind dives into the deepest waters of your consciousness, swimming within your Deep and amidst the dark, cool waters of your minds eyes, the projections of your mental body onto this dimmed canvas can offer you the opportunity to understand how your mind really works and to discover who is really in charge of your consciousness – you or someone or something else?

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Clare Aime

The Neon and Turquoise Diary on the 10th September as Uranus octiles Neptune

Senses enlivened, through the spin you see clearly the distractions that bind souls to a way of being that is designed to prevent your awakening; to stop you purely connecting to a deeper meaning; to keep you chained to this reality, closing you off from the holographic multiverse that you/ we live within. Insights abound as the scale of society’s comatosed behaviour is revealed and you can see the filament threads ensorcelling the hearts and minds of those devouring the blue pill. Painful to witness and disheartening, your focus is jarred by the transparency of those insights and the sickly feeling of seeing the life force and creative spirit being sucked from humanity. What can you do? After all you are but one person. Will you sit in similar consort, rejoicing in apathy’s walk over? Or will you focus on the filaments that continue to bind you to this world, freeing yourself fully and showing the way for others to join you? That is the choice that befalls you as your soul awaits this psychonautic journey to your inner landscapes.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Mark Henson

The Red Diary on the 8th September as Mars trioctiles Pluto

A raw, unblemished, terrifying power whose unwavering strength is so powerful that you can literally move mountains with your indomitable will drives through the ether, whose conviction is so complete that you have access to a spirit to keep going, to endure beyond reason, beyond logic; whose quiet determination is so frightening and resolute that no-one could ever question your resolve; and whose passion is so elemental that when unleashed can consume and engulf you to a point that you no longer exist. There is no rule book to guide you as to how to direct it. There is no teacher that can help you understand it. There is only you and your awareness.

How do you want to channel this life give/ life destroying energy is entirely up to you! But remember, with great power comes massive responsibility, a responsibility that transcends beyond morality and ethics, a responsibility that has nothing to do with the smallness of your egoic Self, but a responsibility to your humanity and to gOd consciousness to honour and respect your pre-life choice to become a custodian of the most powerful, most dangerous and more fertile life force imaginable. Yet you may not fully recognise it within yourself, which is why the world is now conspiring around you to force you to connect with this primal, reptilian survival being within you during moments of peak and heightened emotional tension. It is within those moments can you glimpse that towering strength, like a patient volcano waiting to erupt, giving and taking life in its smouldering heat. It is there for you to access and use, to bring through you the elementalness of your spirit and to enable your dreams to find manifestation, even if the world around you ‘appears’ to thwart you.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Californian artist Hines

The Turquoise and Neon Diary on the 7th September as Neptune octiles Uranus
Within these Orwellian times where nothing is certain, ‘war is peace, freedom is slavery and ignorance is strength’, it may feel as if those pillars of certainty – honour and honesty are no longer stalwarts. The goalposts constantly changing within a world that is no longer solid, chaos reigning within this personal and public fog, it feels to me that within this challenging change, where even the best laid plans and commitments maybe waylaid, all you have is your personal code of integrity. Even if your heart feels lost, angry or despair at the empty promises made by the wolf in sheep’s clothing; even if you feel despondent that hope has left you; even if you feel overwhelmed by the barrage of pain, fear and loss that consumes the newstalk; even if you feel that what is not lOve thrives within this unclear land, your heart is all you can stand by.
 
Through this uncertain space, your heart continues to dream of a state of wholeness, a place where everything comes together, where loss will be made good, where blindness will transform into vision and where damage will be made whole. This is my prayer for you, for us, that you look with the One eye to see what the Two cannot; that you see through the diffuseness that masks an ever changing landscape; that you know in your heart that what binds you is being eroded and dissolved; that you are being called to look in and not out to find freedom and truth; that you stand resolute and firm to those ideals that bring you closer to lOve, even if it is easy to react from a place of fear and anger; and that you know that as you face the chaos, wholeness is eventually created.
 
This may mean diving deeper into the chaos as you may be called to acknowledge, challenge and grapple with forces that insidiously thrive within chaos, forces that often work in ways that are exceedingly subtle and cloaked, or embodied within a ‘noble’ soul who in the clear light of day is a wolf in sheep’s wool. Facing further into those empty promises and standing resolute in the belief that lOve will prevail, whilst at the same time compassionately calling out those whose empty words overlie a perfidious reality may not feel lOving
 
For today, let there be an opening into the stillness that lies beneath the chaos, where you find the peace you did not think possible and see what shimmers within the storm.
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
Extract from Embodiment of chaos, The New Moon in Mutable Earth on the 20th Sept, to be published shortly
 
Image from the cover of “Happy in a Hostile World” by Dr. Carl Patrasso. Photographed by unknown
The Silver Diary on the 6th September as the Moon Fulls in Pisces
Six and a half months on from the seed you planted to no longer become a wave in the ocean, but become THE ocean, you are now ‘feeling’ the full force of your emotional body in all levels of your world. Deeply emotional, ebbing to and fro within this free flowing fluid exchange of emotional charged light between you and everyone and everything within your world, the question of how you have truly embodied your feeling nature; whether you have listened to your emotional intelligence; and how puppeteered you are by your emotions is now viscerally transparent for you and the world to experience. In the same way that the Dark has been fighting hard to survive against the increasing numbers of those that are remembering they are Light, that external battle has been mirrored within you, as those darkened emotions that bind and enslave you have been roaming freely, trying desperately to find safe ground to make their home.
 
Quietly beside you, as you swim along this e-moting and e-nlightening path, forgiveness, acceptance and compassion have been your allies, ever shielding you from those whose blindness has emotionally done you harm. Within these warming waters, your Light is spreading and your gOdness prevailing, even though the waters you’ve swum through have been at times treacherous. The double talk echoing from those within your world has been ignored as you have learnt to look past those beautifully crafted words to the deeper intent of a small and damaged ego that has tried to impose itself on an already faltering ego-driven world, holding steadfast to your commitment to Being as opposed to doing. It may be a quiet, non-invasive path, as opposed to a world filled with selfie-vlogging, but as you have sought to reclaim those deeper emotional weaves lingering from your ancestral lines, the health of your inner world is now gently spilling over the inky-blue carpet.
 
A wave is not IN the ocean. A wave is THE ocean.
 
You are THAT ocean.
 
Whatever you feel within your web, you create for everyone else. Your heart, your imagination, your inspiration and your emotions create reality for each and every-one. The healing you have done, in turn heal your world. The forgiveness you feel, washes over us all. As you release your pain, you help us release our pain.
 
Thank you for what you have released. Thank you for the deep processing you have done. Thank you for your healing medicine and the clearing out you have done. Thank you.
 
As the Moon fulls, there is only one thing to do – feel in and feel out. Feel in and feel out.
 
Andrew Smith © 2017
Photographer unknown

The Gold Diary on the 5th September as the Sun opposes Neptune and trioctiles Uranus and Mercury turns Direct

The past three weeks have been about taking the time to draw on your listening-imagination so that you can truly hear your gentle voice within the heart of your life, a voice that is clearer, deeper and more relevant than that critical voice of anxiety, judgement and disappointment. Surrounded by emotional distractions, deceit and empty promises of union or of a ‘brighter’ future, your ego has been through the wringer, toss and tumbled like a feather in a storm.

Yet as you have truly listened and planted a new seed ten days ago, the enchanting veils of illusion that have become the standard bearer have been pierced. Reality as it was, is no longer. Squandering yourself on foods, people and situations that deplete your essence no longer feels apt, relevant or even meaningful as the hooks that bind you to those unkind situations are released. Sadness may grace your path as you step off this treadmill and quit the soap opera, but today as you stand and face illusion; today, as clarity of your heart abounds; today, as your mind is filled with insight to move forward; today, as you can see what you have always known in your heart to be true; today, you can ‘feel’ past the pain of regret, you are landing with steady feet on the earth, a safe haven within this mental and heartfelt tumult. Be gentle, my friend, for there were no mistakes, just deep learning; be compassionate towards all that you have experienced, they were just that, experiences; be kind, because those agents are on their own path and may not realise what they have done; be thankful, as the emotional bonds that trap you are released; be jOyfilled as a new energy and passion awakens within you; and just be, as your mind turns out from in.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Photo of Magician Dynamo

The Orange Diary on the 4th September as Mercury trines Uranus

Faster than a speeding bullet, the ideas burst through you, exploding into your consciousness, instantaneously inspirational and deeply insightful, opening your mind further, exciting and enlivening you and then… gone as quickly as they arrived. Perhaps it is not necessary for everything to land and settle; perhaps the Muse is only meant cross the Veil for a second, reminding that the world is not horizontal and a lot more colourful than your greying education has painted; but come on… so not fair, after all you have just had such clarity, conviction and surety move through you, as if the caul has lifted from your eyes and you are seeing everything afresh and renewed, almost as if you had been lifted from your own life and were seeing through an alien’s perspective. All ten senses awakened, your mind joined with your heart, knowledge rapidly transmitted, your perception altered irrevocably, as your body experiences and knows, even if the mind cannot retain. Utterly invigorating and totally genius, your life will not be the same again.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Artist Marcel Caram

The Orange Diary on the 4th September as Mercury trines Uranus

Faster than a speeding bullet, the ideas burst through you, exploding into your consciousness, instantaneously inspirational and deeply insightful, opening your mind further, exciting and enlivening you and then… gone as quickly as they arrived. Perhaps it is not necessary for everything to land and settle; perhaps the Muse is only meant cross the Veil for a second, reminding that the world is not horizontal and a lot more colourful than your greying education has painted; but come on… so not fair, after all you have just had such clarity, conviction and surety move through you, as if the caul has lifted from your eyes and you are seeing everything afresh and renewed, almost as if you had been lifted from your own life and were seeing through an alien’s perspective. All ten senses awakened, your mind joined with your heart, knowledge rapidly transmitted, your perception altered irrevocably, as your body experiences and knows, even if the mind cannot retain. Utterly invigorating and totally genius, your life will not be the same again.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Artist Marcel Caram

The Blood red-Orange Diary on the 3rd September as Mercury and Mars align in Leo

On this day that births clarity and conviction, may you have the equanimity and composure not to personalise what is said of you, but to receive it with an open heart, confidence in your own essence and steady of your own light to see where another is on their journey. May you have the grace to act in kindness and the humility to know that even when you are right, you do not need to impose yourself on your world. May you have speak truth in an open and honest manner, without an agenda and without intending to ‘get one up’ on another, respecting their opinion, even if you don’t agree. May you receive the clarity of truth, speak with burning passion, yet carry lOve in your heart so that arrogance does not grip you. May your mind continue to lOve frontiers so that your childlike enthusiasm can invoke in your world all that is good, bright and life affirming. And may you carry this seed of clear thought and deft action with you in all that you do and with all whom you share your light.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Joseph Parker Dawn of the Aquarian Age (1968)

The Neon and Turquoise Diary on the 2nd September as Uranus and Neptune continue to octile

Ah the tumult… Sweeping through consciousness at every level, a raging, swirling tempest, unsettling those institutions by which we live; dissolving what has felt like reality in its wake; and thinning the barrier that has kept us safe from that which could free us. And so it has been feeling tenuous. Why? Maybe it has something to do with our obsessive drive to become the living embodiment of Einstein’s definition of stupidity as ‘we’ attempt to deal with cope with uncertainty by re-creating in the way that ‘we’ have always done and, with our fingers crossed, hope that the outcome will be somewhat different.

But it is not working.

It cannot work.

Why? Nothing, literally nothing is working the way that it should. But, my friend, there is no point struggling with any preconceived structures that have been designed to keep you comfortable – no, let’s rephrase that, that keeps those in control comfortable. The rules are not changing – they’ve already changed; the mechanisms within all systems have already dissipated and dissolved; time feels different; relationships have been irrevocably altered; duality has morphed and multiple realities co-exist; what was solid, is no longer… All you can do is to less your need to ‘clutch’ onto what appears to be real; all you can do is enter the myst and allow the Veil consume you; all you can do is surrender and let go; all you have to do is embrace the chaos and coax into being this new wave; all you can do is look with One eye and trust what you cannot see with the two.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by jee young lee

The Orange Diary on the 27th August as the Sun and Mercury start off the new Mind-Light cycle in Virgo   

And so it begins… though you may have a lot going on at other levels of your consciousness; though your heart maybe processing some delicate scripts; though your beliefs maybe in question; though your physicality maybe learning humility and your emotional body lies beneath a weight of intense emotions, may you feel the relief of a clear mind rinse through your soul, calling your eyes to see with clarity, your heart to feel with conviction and confidence, your desire to feel free to express through you with reverence and respect, and your actions align with your deeper intentions. Awakening from its slumber, may your mind stay clear and open to the possibility that you are and that those in your life are, recognising the world that lies beneath pretence and ego-posturing. It is a new mind-day, it is a new mind-dawn so leave behind those scripts that you’ve been called to release since the 13th. Awaken, breathe, ground and create…

Andrew Smith  © 2017

Art by Mary Southard ‘Earth I am’

The Venus Diaries on the 24th August as Venus trioctiles Neptune

Heart-consciousness disillusionment can arise in all forms, varying in severity but is merely one form of dis-integration, splitting off and compartmentalisation, can leave you feeling let down beyond comprehension feeling shocked, alienated and isolated and perhaps even lacking confidence regarding how you lOve, what you lOve and who you lOve. But does disillusionment really only serve to destroy? Is it not also a builder, as you alchemically create a differing reality after a period of existential crisis? You can neither ‘spiritually bypass’ nor ‘spiritualise’ a very real situation by side-stepping or repressing the uncomfortable emotions that arise, but if you let the emotions flow so that they become a tributary to the soul, all the necessary lessons are harboured there. As your heart opens up to a higher value, the illusion that your ego-heart desires is often just that – an illusion, a potent one that further binds you, preventing you from truly reaching home – that state of complete unconditional acceptance of who you are, where you are and how you are. Perhaps you could ‘blame’ the eclipses; perhaps you could blame the ‘object’ of the disappointment; perhaps you could blame yourself for your stupidity; or perhaps you could see the ‘gifts’ that are being offered as another layer of distraction is shed as you move towards a greater conscious awareness of your wholeness.

Andrew Smith © 2017
Art by Andreea Cernestean

The Red Diary on the 23rd August as Mars trines Saturn

In the same way that the Moon needs time before she becomes full, any seeds that are planted take time before they are ready to show their fledgling shoots. In a fast paced world, the savouring insights that patience gifts has been forgotten, and yet it is those insights that help to refine, strengthen and sharpen your focus on your path. Patience is not about sitting and waiting. Patience is not about learning to deal with frustration. It is about looking at the night but seeing the day; it is about reinforcing the initial vision and refining it as further information comes to light to help you gain a deeper understanding of the path that needs to be walked. That eclipse seed planted on Monday will emerge. Soon. But for now, trust, let it go and watch it grow.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Inspired by Rumi; Art by OLEG LIPCHENKO

The Gold and Silver Diary on the 21st August – The Eclipse/ New Moon in Fixed Fire

The deepest soul growth takes place within the Dark, a place wherein you cannot hide from the narrative of your Mind, projected onto a canopy that has no boundaries; that is utterly enveloping; that penetrates you to your core and offers you the opportunity to ‘see’ the truth of the health of your interiority. Without the distractions of the external world to encourage you to ignore; within the profound quietness that amplifies your inner narrative; the Dark eclipses your front and exposes who you are.

Smoothing your soul, softening your jagged edges, quietening that insufferable inner narrative, breathe in the enveloping silence of the fake night as the harsh, dazzling yet vibrant light gradually dims and diffuses like a watercolour landscape, fading eventually to grey and then painted black, as Nature pauses in quiet awe and the heat of busyness is cooled by full but gentle embrace of the Inner heart being made fully visible.

As the spark of your Inner Flame is once again re-ignited you can offer up that which tampers with your life, purrs fear in its web and has frozen your heart. Today offers you the chance to stand in the presence of your Inner World and to ‘experience’ the reality the health of your Inner Spirit and how still your Soul is. It is a wonderful occasion to observe what distractions arise within this Dark to keep you bound to ancient scripts that do not serve jOy, peace and lOve.

Offer it up, my friend, offer it up.

Andrew Smith ©2017

Here is a link to my offering on www.Cosmicintelligenceagency.com – a narrative and article on the New Moon: https://cosmicintelligenceagency.com/an-eclipse-of-your-ma…/

The Turquoise Diary on the 20th August as Neptune octiles Uranus

It felt so right to swallow the red pill, after all you sought truth, you wanted to know and now that you have opened the eye that matters and have pulled back the curtain, exposing the manipulating puppeteer, you don’t know what to do! It is hard to face the disconnect between vision and truth and the reality of how that truth and vision are applied, since it means admitting the lie and re-wiring those deeply grooved conditional scripts so that you can start to live completely in line with what you truly believe. It is too easy to pick out obvious ideological disconnects, like a meat eating, Bible quoting born again Christian carrying a gun in the glove compartment for self-defence purposes not realising the irony that “thou shalt not kill” means thou shalt not kill, but now the Veil has been pierced, you cannot but not ‘see’ how deep and subtle the disconnect runs.

During this chaotically revolutionary time, you can gain a deeper insight into ANY disconnect between vision and truth, as your surrounding world prompts you into an existential questioning of the socio-spiritual values that you have grown within and whether you are living in true alignment with those core values at EVERY level of your being – physically, economically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Those outrageous dramas that you have been experiencing are merely ‘designed’ to better understand the difference between “power over” versus “taking on your own power”, bringing into your awareness the issues of living in accord with your truth and convictions.

The blue pill can be taken and you can go back to sleep. But can you forget what your One Eye has seen? No. Even if you numb yourself with busyness, screens, worry and fear, mood altering drugs and alcohol, it isn’t really working and nightmares have been disturbing your sleep as your spirit seeks to continue to liberate itself from that which binds it fast. So you may as well continue to walk through this Veil and try to find a bridge to connect what you believe to be true with the way that you are currently living…

Andrew Smith © 2017

Screen shot from The Wizard of Oz, MGM 1939

The Neon Diary on the 19th August as Uranus octiles Neptune

It’s been ever so confusing on planet Earth of late, not knowing what to believe; what is true; what is false; what is solid; what is fantasy; what you are being told; what you are not being told; is the Earth flat or spherical; why is it that you are told that things are improving yet it feels as if the world is living in a perpetual ground hog day, as the same patterns and stories repeat, time and time again (albeit with an ever increasing technological backdrop). It feels that all news is fake and nothing Big Brother is telling you is true, as they protect their own self-serving interests under the pretence of that ever so dangerous statement “for the greater good”. Security tightens, colonisation increases, pressure rises.

But you know what is true. You know what is appropriate. You know what the right thing to do is. You know that YOU cannot compromise on your ideals, as you know that will further bind you to the Wheel, a wheel that you are trying so hard to free yourself from. And as the veil has been pierced and Light lifts through the mist, you can ‘see’ what you have known and felt. Even though your ego might be upset; even though your gut might drop; even though your heart might momentarily miss a beat, you know that you cannot compromise your inner truth – a truth your mind has been searching for as you have turned inwards towards YOUR light. That Light, the one that is eternal and can never dwindle (because of the existence of the Leonine archetype within you (that archetype about to be renewed for the second time inside of a month)), is your saving grace – from the lies of the world; from the pretence of those trying to be OF the world; from the games that are played to stock pile for some distant time in the future; from the fear that walks before the dying Darkness, whose desperate fight for survival tightens the screw of those at the top of the pyramid. Your light, your truth is all that you have, and within this clear light, the blurred boundaries are revealed and so too the actions you need to make to enable your Light to continue to burn brightly.

Don’t be disappointed with what you are now seeing. It is the insight you have needed to free your Light.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Olafur Eliasson – Beauty

The Red Diary on the 16th August as Mars quincunxes Pluto

There is a natural rhythm to the active and receptive energies within. At times your energy is strong and outgoing better enabling you to pursue your goals, to take risks and to get things accomplished. At other times, that libidinal energy is quiet and sensitive and encourages you to take the time to nurture yourself, to relax and just ‘be’ for a while. In those less vibrant moments there is no point pushing through it; there is no point trying to prove how stoic and resolute you are; there is no point getting frustrated and angry. In the same way that spring always follows winter, so too will your libido rise. If you can trust and follow this rhythm, you will attract and create everything that your soul truly needs, even if your ego disagrees.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Art by Jaison Cianelli

The Orange Diary on the 13th August as Mercury retrogrades

Tired mind, look and see all that you have done and all that you have perceived. The world is of your making, unlimited as it is; so why hide your light from shining, when your truth will set you free. Turn inwards towards your light, staying true to your road; distancing yourself from the distractions who attempt to claim your heart during this oft maligned and misunderstood time. Your keys will be found; your contracts will be fine; your calendar will not corrupt; your data will be retrieved; and your communication will not be misunderstood as the world will not grind to a halt. Energy follows attention; attention arises from awareness; awareness stems from knowing and knowing comes from stillness. My prayer for you today is for stillness of mind and the beauty in listening to the magic that exists in your life. Look in to look out.

Andrew Smith © 2017

Image by Android Jones